Wednesday, June 30, 2004 . 6/30/2004

We went to see Cal yesturday, then to Target, then we went out to eat. I wasn't very hungry but my mom got a salad for me anyway. I only ate a little bit and then I started crying. At first I didn't know why but then I realized that lately, meaning for weeks, I had lost my appetite. If I eat something I don't like one day I end up not being hungry for a while. Then I started thinking of Cal, and how he is being put to sleep Thursday, which is tomorrow. Then my dad asked if it was because of Cal and I nodded yes, and that started my mom crying. The waitress must have thought we were phsycos.

So then today we went to see him again and I got to ride my favorite horse (besides Cal) named Cheyanne, a really pretty appaloosa gelding. My dad also took some pictures of me riding him, and of Cal. I know I should be there for him when he gets put to sleep, but it's all just too sad, and I've suffered too much depression in the past months to go into a deep one again.

When I'm sad enough I'll do anything. Even go to the theater, which I think I want to do, to see the third Harry Potter, just to cheer me up. Comedy and the sort cheers me up. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Monday, June 28, 2004 . 6/28/2004

I have cried this morning.. actually this evening because I sleep late (4-9 P.M usually), because it is definate now: Cal is going to be put down. He has to be. There is no cure for him. A horse needs all his legs, and arthritis just takes away his life. I have already suggested an idea of a bionic leg. It would cost too much for one thing, and it may not even be possible. My former filly, though, Dream Catcher (Dreamy) rescently gave birth to her second colt, Bingo, who looks JUST like Cal. Call me strange, but I think Cal already reincarnated.

Also, I have this book (Muggles and Magic) and it has this section on censorship and book banning. For those of you who think the books Harry Potter has something to do with the devil, you're idiots. All it is is a book about this stupid PPPOTTER who finds out he's a wizard and he goes to this wizarding school. No where in the books have there been even the smallest clue that Potter is satanic, etc. Stupid religious freaks. Not all magic is evil. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Thursday, June 24, 2004 . 6/24/2004

I went to the place where we board Cal, and he still has pretty bad arthritis; bad as in he can barely move or take care of himself. I have wondered why this can't be fixed with surgery, but even if it could he wouldn't make it up the trailer and to do the surgery where he is would prove as well. We are going to have to put him down.

Dream Catcher though, our former horse (now about 3, 4 years old) had a second colt by which is named Bingo, that looks remarkably like Cal, and is a little fat and everything. I also got the "Impressionistic Page" , or s if you will, it being a mare and foal and all, and they look just like Dreamy and Bingo. I was one out of 350 to get drawn.
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Wednesday, June 23, 2004 . 6/23/2004

My stomach hurts pretty bad. I took a shower earlier than I usually do, which was about 10:30 AM or so. Thought I'd get it over with. I'm also very cold.. and bored.. why else would I be typing here? Well, other than put some thoughts away..

Oh yes and I slept for 2 days in a row and I'm still tired. Ever notice the more you sleep the more tired you get? 2 Comments - Post/view comments

Monday, June 21, 2004 . 6/21/2004

Second night of 'Salem's Lot and I'm still not very scared. Don't want to be either. Turns out it was about vampires, which was cool. I've got to get the book.. I saw it at Borders.

Nothing else. Don't plan on there being much.

Oh yeah and I hear a loud frog outside if that satisfies you. 1 Comments - Post/view comments

Sunday, June 20, 2004 . 6/20/2004

Well I watched 'Salem's Lot today.. part 1, and it wasn't that scary, though if I was alone it probably would be. Anyway, I like those kind of movies, with a mysterious guy and all..

Not much else. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Thursday, June 17, 2004 . 6/17/2004

I went to the ortodontist today. I don't want to get braces at all. I never even told my mom I wanted any. She just says I'll be happy I did it. And I'll be honest, I do feel the same way somewhat, being that I have a rather large overbite, but still, it doesn't bother me much at all. Oh well. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Wednesday, June 16, 2004 . 6/16/2004

For the people I get mad at: it truely is you. I'm sorry that I have a low tolerance for people who spell phoenexes as "feenixes" and for people who act so remotely stupid I find it hard to believe they know how to even push the button that turns the computer on.

I know I sound snobby. I know I sound as if I think I am better than everyone else. But the truth is, smarter people rule the stupid ones. So I AM better.

Not counting the fact that I have stupid days sometimes. Who doesn't?

But I'm talking those who seem to have stupid lives, years, months, etc, rather than just days. 0 Comments - Post/view comments Why do so many people like anime? So many freaking layouts about freaking anime. It gets me really annoyed. What's so great about a freaking japanese crap cartoon whose lips don't even move right when they talk? Just the look of anime is enough to make me barf, and even the word, and the mention of it. Sorry for this continueous ranting, but I'm tired and besides, I am looking for a real answer here. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Tuesday, June 15, 2004 . 6/15/2004

Alright, I have quite a series of rants here (as usual). First of all, and what most recently got me thinking, is internet cable. I just saw a Comcast truck near our road. What was that about? I know it may just be for the tv, but it's cable all the same. I am getting SICK of dial-up. Once every place has it I think dial-up should go.

Second thing is too many houses going up. People wonder why we don't have money for anything, and look what they wasted their money on. Houses. There's just too much. There's enough houses already. At least we've got those demelition guys.. that's in the big cities though. Burning everywhere else.

Next is people. Annoying people. Enough said.

This was on the news weeks ago, but I just now remembered it: People stealing things from building sites. That just makes me happy. Keep up the good work, theives!

When me and my parents were going to CompUSA/Koals, they were talking how there are more k.illers(ignore the dot;my computer is sensitive)here than in any other place (any other place meaning London and Canada). Here we have thousands. London 1 or 2, and Canada 30. Some person blamed it on the media, saying they just scare us. I don't know how that would bring up the rate..

When I got to CompUSA, there were hardly any good games there. All the good ones were purely online, and I have no cable, and dial-up certainly does not work for that sort of thing (due to my experience, but obviously I had doubt it would really work for more than a second or two anyway), so that rules those out. And all the computer games there viewed the "world" as if you were above everyone, just controling everything, and not actually being IN the game itself like Morrowind does. All the games there seem to be the same. Neverwinter Nights seemed all right so I got that. Looks a lot like everything else though. I never could find any good game after I got Morrowind. If you like a certain game (no cable, no internet), please let me know. I'd like to get addicted to something else other than Morrowind and Black & White.

I am also looking for some good mods for Morrowind (no Tribunal required, as I don't have that yet), particulary races and bug/quest fixes. Please respond with any good mods I should try. I have a lot already, but half either require Tribunal or just won't open (it says it's part of a "multi-disc set" and it has an error opening; stupid). Also I have downloaded something so the Cliffracers and Slaughterfish won't attack unless provoked, but I have NO idea where .RAR files go and I put the thing in every Morrowind file. Looking for advise there <- :)

Edit: I downloaded Zip Genius and that was a huge help. Now I have tons more mods, but the only problem is that I have downloaded a rideable horse mod, only to find it freaking requires Tribunal, and there were at least 20 .esp files! What a waste of space. Stupid Tribunal.. I need to buy that just to get half the good mods to work. >:I 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Saturday, June 12, 2004 . 6/12/2004

be sorted @ nimbo.net

Hmm well.. just felt like keeping that html code thing up there ^ I left it as an option to have it there all the time. So I will leave it there this time.

I watched the first LOTR on the WAM! channel. Not much else going on. Except I really want to swim now and we're going to Target tomorrow (or today, rather, being it 12 in the morning). 1 Comments - Post/view comments

Friday, June 11, 2004 . 6/11/2004

Origninaly school was supposed to end the 14th of June. But now it's the 11th. They changed it. And now today is my first day of summer vacation. You'd think I'd be more excited, right? Well, I keep it inside. Don't have the heart to show it. And summer vacation goes by fast most of the time. Before I know it school will start once again and I'll go back to ranting like a maniac on how stupid it all is and how I teach myself what I WANT to know.

If you like and take interest in a certain thing, it will most likely become part of your job. Even having an interest in things such as dragons and mythology, there is the option of being a cryptozoologist or medeivalist. If your job would require math, basic, mind you, which most jobs do involve math, you would learn that. And reading and writing, of course. But after that, it's your desition [having trouble spelling today] what you want to do from there: waste your life or teach yourself what interests you. Even miner interests. That's what I do. Of course I still need to go to school, but there is a dream I have that school only includes math and reading. From there, learn what interests you, and you could have a really good job.

I haven't been on furc for a while now because of (1) I have been too buisy with the real world, and (2) I have been playing Morrowind. I have not had the desire to deal with idiots on furc, which, mind you, are all over, and seem to go online daily. Buttwipes.

I have more rants.. but after all this typing I seem to have forgotten them. If ever I think of anything, I will add on to this.
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