Tuesday, August 31, 2004 . 8/31/2004

Well it was the first day of school today. I only got lost once.. well, twice, but only the one time I was late. The art teacher is just scary. He does indeed have a weird sense of humor like he said, but it's not really that funny..

My mom drove me home today. That made me feel better, since I wouldn't have to go through the hastle of finding which exist to take to get to the buses, and to mine, 38. My mom went in the back to see where my bus was, and it turns out it's right near the back exist of the gym, and my last class of the day is Individual Sports, so that's good. I also would like to write, or type down more, but I'll save that for my journal/diary I have on my nightstand. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Monday, August 30, 2004 . 8/30/2004

School is tomorrow. This just sucks. Me and my mom went to the school with my schedule and looked for the classes I would be going to. It's pretty confusing, like a maze almost. I can remember things real well so hopefully I won't get lost.

I'm so nervous. I hate school. I hate the people. I hate finding classes and pushing everyone out of the way just to get to them. Like I said. I teach myself. SCREW IT ALL..

If only my parents would buy that. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Sunday, August 29, 2004 . 8/29/2004

What Is Your Animal Personality?
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0 Comments - Post/view comments I got my new glasses, and it's taking time to get used to.. things seem a bit blurry and odd, but that always happens with sucky glasses.. I'm sure it happens with contacts too..

I am SO glad school doesn't start tomorrow. It starts Tuesday, which sucks, but at least it isn't tomorrow. So my mom is taking me to the school tomorrow to help me find where all my classes are. I'm so nervous.. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Friday, August 27, 2004 . 8/27/2004

I'm not getting my contacts until Thursday, it turns out. Oh well. But, we are going other places tomorrow, after we pick up my new glasses ( I HATE glasses ), we're going to the new Sam's Club that's over here, and maybe even Borders. The sad thing is that my mom has the week off today until Thursday, ( she stayed home yesturday as well ) so the last time I got to spend the day by myself was Wednesday. Again, oh well.. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Thursday, August 26, 2004 . 8/26/2004

Today on furc, I met up with this lovely ( not ) person named Bunji. You see, she was sort of joking around with Red Fl@mes, I didn't know she was joking around. And so I step in, right, and start sticking up for this dude I barely know ( don't ask why ) and then she starts nagging at me just for a mistake. It might just be me, but is that messed? 0 Comments - Post/view comments I got my braces tightened today, and they don't hurt -yet-. And I'm certain now that school starts Tuesday. No school Monday or Friday, and I have a day off at least once a month. WO0OOoOOoO

Last night I dreamt of being naked, the first time I remember doing so. On DreamMoods.com it says that:

Becoming mortified at the realization that you are walking around naked in public, is often a reflection of your vulnerability or shamefulness. You may be hiding something and are afraid that others can nevertheless see right through you. Metaphorically clothes are a means of concealment. With clothes, you can hide your identity or be someone else. But without them, everything is hanging out for all to see. You are left without any defenses. The dream may telling you that you are trying to be something that you really are not. Or that you are fearful of being ridiculed and disgraced. If you are in a new relationship, you may have some fears or apprehension in revealing your true feelings.

At some points I was also feeling proud, and on this it says:

For a small percentage of you, dreaming that you are proud of your nakedness and show no embarrassment or shame, then it symbolizes your unrestricted freedom. You have nothing to hide and are proud of who you are. The dream is about a new sense of honesty, openness, and a carefree nature.

I dreamt of being naked AFTER I was starting to feel more relaxed about people, deciding I should stop picking fights at every potential moron I see. This isn't me though, and this dream proves it. Some people in the dream really didn't care I didn't have any clothes; didn't really notice. But most did. And at the points I felt proud, it was because I just don't know how to "act" really, and I don't know who I am.. if that makes any sense.

Also, I try to reveal my true self, and I want to, but not everyone "allows" me to. Because they are morons.

Edit: I got it all backwards. I'm actually trying to be nice, but the lack of sane people is making it very hard. I'm getting better at it though. I guess the fact that it's on the verge of raining is making my mood better.
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Tuesday, August 24, 2004 . 8/24/2004

I created this sortof "title page" for this blog, for anything but blog entries. Right now it just has links, but I'm working on it. Click here.

School starts next week I believe, and I'm getting pretty sad. My friend Amanda is home schooled, and if she still lived nearby, her mom could probably home school me aswell. My mom says that if I had some sort of good social level, and a certain amount of friends then she'd consider home schooling. But since she thinks I need to be more social, here I am, anticipating going out in public.

I wish I could just escape from it all, like go in a coma or something, and dream the rest of my life...

I'm tired. I should go to sleep soon so that I can enjoy the rest of this week's days alone by myself before the thing I dread comes along. Which of course is school if you haven't figured out. I'd much rather prefer staying home by myself at night, but my parents unfortuneately work during the day. Oh well..

My contacts came in, yay. I just hope I'll be able to get them in this time.. I'll SHOVE them in.. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Monday, August 23, 2004 . 8/23/2004

I noticed my dad was making his own website. I think it's sweet o.o 0 Comments - Post/view comments I went to the highschool orentation thing, saw lots of people I knew, even people from my old schools etc. I really don't want to go back. Like I said before, I basically teach myself. But, since most people can't be trusted, why should they trust me? 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Saturday, August 21, 2004 . 8/21/2004

Well we went to Target today, then Borders.

At Target, there were these foreigners who smelled like B.O and who were phoning someone to ask what a retractable binder/folder was. I'm surprised she even knew how to use a phone. And she talked LOUD. "WHAT IZ THIS EH, 'TRACTABLE FOLDER?"

At Borders, there was this nerd who got a "Where is Waldo?" book. He was what, 16 or so? I laughed so hard to myself. Of course there were a lot of good-lookers there, however.
I got some books, Dracula and Ghost Writings, this book on true ghost stories.

On the way home I saw this police car and fire truck rushing to some place on our road. I know I'm not one to like people, but I thought, what if the person's who's house or car is on fire is a good friend, or someone that could be? But then I thought, what am I doing, feeling sad for someone I don't know, that is probably ugly anyway? Then I thought of a fat annoying person's house/car on flames and felt better. Don't ask me how or why.
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Thursday, August 19, 2004 . 8/19/2004

Turns out we went to neither Olive Garden or Borders. Before we went I asked my mom if we could go to Borders, and again she said no. So I refused to go to Olive Garden and I stayed home. My parents went to this place called The Bayou Grill, and near there is an A&W, so they brought me home some of that, even though they said they weren't bringing back anything. 0 Comments - Post/view comments School starts very soon. Too soon. I have this school orientation thing Monday at 9 p.m I think ( or is it a.m? PLEASE NO ). They give us our schedules, show us around etc. I am so nervous. And I am crying about it. I hate school. I teach myself and shouldn't have to go. Smart ones who do that shouldn't have to go. It seems fair enough. After all, I only want a job with things I'm interested in, not something I hate. So whatever it is, I teach myself ( books, science and history channel etc ). I already know more, and have known more, than kids in my past classes. Why? No, I didn't pay attention to the boring stuff, I taught myself. Computer games ( like The Magic School Bus ) and the tv shows also helped me when I was younger.

Screw school and society.

Oh and also we are going to The Olive Garden, my favorite restraunt, tonight, which will make me feel better hopefully, and maybe even my favorite store, Borders. I could use a few dozen more books. 0 Comments - Post/view comments Congratulations, You are 90% Evil

"You are Evil, we are afraid of you. Are you a lawyer or a politician? Don't worry its nothing that can't be changed or at least covered up with some well placed bribes. For the time being though we recommend you stay away from any blind men trying to cross the street."

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Morpheus


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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You are a Siren. More adventurous than all with a
voice like no other you sit on warm rocks and
sing to the moon and sea. Yet sometimes
shipwrecks find you and raving men want you.
You are a bottle of talent and power. What the
unknown is you seek to find, and a lover. You
have the moon and stars as freinds. There are a
very few of you, what a rare find. Will you
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beautiful?


What kind of mermaid are you? (Gorgeous Pics)
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You're Element is Fire. You have a strong,
independant, fiery personality and you
obviously don't let other's puch you around.
You like being in charge and don't care what
other people think. In fact, you like to stand
out and be yourself. You're probably shy when
people first meet you but your a ball of energy
that could explode at any given moment. You
like to laugh and whether you admit it or not,
you like to fight. You're peronality that is
wild and untamable. You're beauty is physically
fit and a little sexy and you have a very
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[ I say it how I want ok? ]

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[ You are on my stupid list now. ]

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Wednesday, August 18, 2004 . 8/18/2004

A bit on my sign, the Taurus

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Who smiles through life –
except when crossed?
Who knows, or thinks he knows the most?
Who loves good things: baked,
boiled or roast?
Oh, Taurus.

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The second sign of the zodiac, Taurus is ruled by Venus. The glyph represents the Bull, Taurus's symbol. The sign is concerned with the manifestation of the self, with basic needs being foremost. Ruled by Venus, Taurus personalities tend to be driven by their affections.

Taurus is the direct opposite of the Aries character. Taurean people tend to be slow, methodical, practical and reserved. They are also stolid, tenacious and determined. Possessing tremendous willpower and self-discipline, they are inclined to stick to tried and traditional methods. Their greatest satisfaction derives from results produced directly by their personal efforts.

Roots are important to the Taurean. A sense of permanence, a feeling of security is essential. Generally an easygoing person, slow to anger, but once roused is known for a ferocious temper. Very difficult to deal with when angry. Usually set off by jealousy due to a possessive nature. Loyalty is important to a Taurus, and a true friend of a Taurean will speak well of their great generosity.

Taureans are warm, loving, gentle and charming most of the time. Motivated by self preservation, the Taurean is not a risk taker and weighs every decision carefully, in a slow and methodical manner. To more impulsive people, Taurus is a bore. Opinionated, stubborn, once a Taurean makes a decision, it is written in stone. Don't expect original thinking and new ideas here. Basically physical people, they prefer the known to the unknown, the tried to the new. They love the earth, possessions, and generally treat those they love as possessions.

Persistence, thoroughness and single-mindedness that can take on dogmatic qualities are the hallmarks of the Taurean personality. No detail will ever be overlooked by the eyes of a Taurus. Motivated by a desire to obtain and accumulate physical possessions, they can be compulsive in their intensity to secure an ample supply of everything they consider important.

Honesty, integrity and dependability are notable Taurean characteristics. The calm, pleasant, and well intentioned Taurus exterior belies the volcanic temper that can erupt when sufficiently aroused. The bright side of the stubborn bull's nature is, they are incredibly and uncompromisingly loyal to their friends. Established slowly, a Taurus friendship can, and often does last a lifetime.
0 Comments - Post/view comments I love the history channel. They're having things now about the mystery of stone hedges, the legend of vampires etc. Everything I love is there. And yes, I believe many things.

I watched a little of Ripley's and there's this guy who believes that the world will end in a battle of humans and cyborgs, that robots are smarter than humans. Honestly, robots/computers are only as smart as we make them to be. Computers make a mistake, it was the person's fault. Yes, I believe in many things, legends etc, but this is not a legend. This is ridiculous, and not reasonable at all. While the parts used to create computers can indeed alter over time, from passage of time, changing and altering the performance, I don't really believe they'll be able, or can, think for themselves. However, I'll keep an open mind even if I seriously doubt. 2 Comments - Post/view comments Why Hallukia is stupid, in the know-it-all sense:

Her desc:

Youthhood phantasm conjoined immature contumacy. Diminutive morphism besmear'd tenebrous contrasts titanium; operculum somewhat prosiac. Impalers connected rachisane, ructating bounteous poinsons amonst foundates. Auphones matched pedestals: captured neutralized tinctures, xanthroup lampistra interpreted destructive existence. Hypocrite: Jeremiad introduced, dalliance concealed was demeaned vehemence. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Tuesday, August 17, 2004 . 8/17/2004

This just in: HALF OF FURC TRADES PICTURES! SOME FOR MONEY! Damnit, it annoys me so much. They have you pay for shipping and handling. WHAT IS THERE TO HANDLE? The digo market annoys me. 0 Comments - Post/view comments Vh1 save the music. But why would you want to keep crap band music in schools? Gives me a headache. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Monday, August 16, 2004 . 8/16/2004

Select Paranormal Phenomena article --

Is it a Chupacabra or not? WOAI.com is getting answers about a bizarre animal shot in Elmendorf.

Bones from a mystery animal shot by an Elmendorf rancher have been taken to an expert from the San Antonio Zoo. But can he tell what it is?

John Gramieri, the Mammal Curator at the San Antonio Zoo, doesn't think it's the Chupacabra. It's definitely unique, but he thinks it's a mix between a dog and a coyote.

Devin MacAnally shot the Elmendorph Beast after it ate dozens of his chickens. The animal has a blue-grey coloring, is almost hairless, has a short mane and large fangs.

“It's clearly a member of the dog family, a family candidate,” explains Gramieri.

Gramieri says he can't tell what type of canine, but that it could be mixed with coyote that has very weird teeth.

“For whatever reason, this animal had a very poor fusion in the front here, so it allowed that lower jaw to spread in a way that is not normal for any mammal, actually,” Gramieri told WOAI.

But what about the creature's color? A blue-grey hairless coat that's unlike any dog or coyote?

“It apparently had some very bad skin ailment,” said Gramieri. “And that skin ailment made it go bald except for the top of its body.”

So there’s no Chubacabra endorsements from the San Antonio Zoo, but MacAnally continues to believe it's something extra special. He knows its one man's opinion versus his, so he'll wait for the DNA results due back in the next few weeks to find out exactly what it is.

“I want this one to be a new species - or at least something that somebody has never seen in a cross between two different ones,” MacAnally said with a smile.

MacAnally says in the past few weeks he's gotten calls from other people claiming to have seen similar creatures around their properties. That's possible, according to the Gramieri. Gramieri believes that there are more out there.

Read more stories like this at paranormal.about.com

0 Comments - Post/view comments I went to the eye doctor today. I'm going to try contacts again later this week/next week; hopefully I'll be able to actually get them in this time. The eye doctor person says my eyes are very sensitive to light.. that I should stop playing the computer so much.. screw them.. about the computer thing. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Eagle!

Bald Eagle's Wisdom Includes:


Swiftness

Strength

Courage

Wisdom

Keen sight

Illumination of Spirit

Healing

Creation

Knowledge of magick

Ability to see hidden spiritual truths

Rising above the material to see the spiritual

Ability to see the overall pattern

Connection to spirit guides and teachers

Great power and balance

Dignity with grace

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some more!


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0 Comments - Post/view comments There are CRAP quizes on quizilla lately. CRAPPITY CRAP CRAP. I only found a few which were halfway descent.
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Your Heart is Black

What Color is Your Heart?
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0 Comments - Post/view comments I'm bored, so here's some quizes I took.


Congratulations! You have captured Drakael's
vampiric heart. Your firey temper and
personality draws him to you. In fact, this
could turn out to be more than just a crush. He
is a very romantic vampire. Don't worry - he
won't bite! Maybe, in the next quiz, I will let
you get to know him a little more...

Would a Vampire, Angel, or Sorcerer fall for you(for girls)? #1
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Sunday, August 15, 2004 . 8/15/2004

Got a pixel dragon today for furc. Most computer games cost more than that. $40 for a picture? Come on. I need Furcadia's email address.. I'll show them a piece of my mind.. I bet they have over a billion dollars by now.. Idiots.. Ridiculous..
0 Comments - Post/view comments Finally, I am back to updating this. If you care. Aywho, I now have braces, they sucked at first, now they are better, blah blah. Honestly, nothing much is happening. Except the fact that I want a snake is (I think) finally getting put into a possibility.

I have cable, and I have played Horizons, which sucks. Morrowind is better than Horizons, and is in fact, my favorite game. Heck, the 'Petz' series is better than Horizons, and that's pretty sad. Furcadia is also better. The music in Horizons.. man, gives me SUCH a headache.. as well as the fact you only have two freaking ways to level up, which is ridiculous.

I forget if I posted this already, but I've seen the 3rd Harry Potter movie, in the theater, and it's pretty good.

I also saw The Village. I seriously have yet to find a movie that scares me. God, I've watched The Omen, and I was by myself. Not scary, just creepy.
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