Thursday, June 30, 2005 . 6/30/2005
I wish I could live in this fantasy world with someone like.. Darth Vader or this hooded and cloaked guy, Flagg, from my favorite book Stephen King's The Eyes of the Dragon. In reality I can only imagine, only dream. It's terrible and lonely and all I can hope for is to find a nice person when I get older, and hopefully I won't be so quiet then. 1 Comments - Post/view commentsWednesday, June 29, 2005 . 6/29/2005
I AM SO FREAKING CLOSE TO BECOMING AN ADULT DRAGON ON HORIZONS. Only like 3 more quests (they're quite long/difficult). It would be easier if I had a regular group of dragons helping me out whenever I need it, because lots of them seem to be buisy with other things. There was already this group being formed today for someone else's RoP (Rite of Passage) so I figured I myswell ask for help tomorrow.It's so much easier being silly and 'speaking' out on furc, since everyone in New Haven knows what I'm like and that I like to be silly. But I'm starting to warm up on Horizons, so that's good.
I think I might undo this new 'layout'.. kinda looks crappy and it's an eyesore to read things.. It's quite hard edited pages with Blogger since it uses its own language and html. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Saturday, June 25, 2005 . 6/25/2005
I had a dream and Draco Malfoy was in it, from Harry Potter. He was my friend in it.. it was weird o.o Oh and Snape was in it a bit too.K that's it. 1 Comments - Post/view comments
Friday, June 24, 2005 . 6/24/2005
New template.. testing it out.. 0 Comments - Post/view comments Well, I went to Borders. What a complete waste of time. Maybe it was my bitchy mood, but as far as I could tell there was nothing new or worth looking at.Now I'm tired from crying.
I bet I look like some angsty teenager whenever I go out. My eyes always seem to be sad, I always stand there with my arms crossed, with a blank face.. 0 Comments - Post/view comments I have been so stupid lately. Bashing christians on a forum (I admitted I was wrong a day or so after though), thinking too much of myself. I need to stop thinking so much. Especially how great I could be or how I am; apparently this makes me arrogant, and I hate arrogant people as much as the next guy does.
Again, I feel sad; what's new. My parents went out to eat, I told them I was upset because I never have any friends to go anywhere with me, etc etc. I do have a friend that is near here, though, but I haven't heard from her in a while and it would be awkward to call her now. All my other friends, about.. 4 of them.. moved to different states. Just my luck, eh?
I've really got to get out of the house. Staying here is making me more depressed. My parents said that maybe after they come home and I take a shower that we could go to Borders. I just might do that, even though it is awkward now going places with just my parents. But that's because I'm thinking about it too much. My best IRL friend used to have to do that (she has two baby brothers now). If I just went somewhere with them, it probably will get less awkward. I hope. But what a really want to do is go see that new Star Wars, and it would be a whole lot more fun if we went with other people, like this cousin I know is a lot like me and probably likes Star Wars.. he's probably already seen the latest one, but I'm sure he wouldn't mind seeing it again. And then my uncle could come, and maybe my cousin's sister.. I have lots of cousins, of course, but the ones I'm speaking of are the ones I can truly tolerate, as they aren't jesus freaks like everyone else in this family. 1 Comments - Post/view comments
Tuesday, June 21, 2005 . 6/21/2005
Well, that was easier than I thought it would be. Actually, my dad has said little things when I asked why he blocked cult/occult. Probably, I am guessing, is because while snooping in my business, he happened on one of those sites, and read up. I think this because when I say it isn't as bad as he thinks it is he says nothing. 2 Comments - Post/view commentsMonday, June 20, 2005 . 6/20/2005
I have this weird pain in my throat and chest. It's kindof going away now, but every time I wake up in the day I always get this weird pain.I wanna swim.. the pool liner had a hole in it so now the pool's being filled with water again. The temperature is pretty cold today anyway (in the pool).
I'd feel uncomfortable swimming infront of my parents. I don't know why, it just feels that way. Especially my dad. I wish he would just go away.
I want to get out of the house, but doing so just with my parents is stupid and boring and annoying. I only have one friend that could come with me, but she hasn't called in a while and I can't imagine calling her myself.
My dad is such a stupid moron. He acts all annoying, I tell him to shut up, he tells me I don't tell him to shut up, but what the fuck does he expect anyway? I hate him so much and his little christian ass. I can't believe he doesn't go to church for fuck's sake. I can't wait for the right moment to tell him off and tell him satanism isn't what he thinks it is. That would feel so good to finally explain it to him. But I must find the right moment. And it better be soon. Maybe, since my dad likes to invade my privacy so much, I'll visit this site that explains what Satanism really is so he can check it out in the 'History' tab when next he feels he should see what 'I've been up to'. Of course, he has blocked Cult/Occult, so I can only go to chached pages. I have been feeling like telling him to take down that blocker, at least in that category, and that would be a good time to explain to him. 2 Comments - Post/view comments
Saturday, June 18, 2005 . 6/18/2005
I had this dream lastnight about this hooded guy with thin lips tinted black, and he kept mouthing words but I couldn't hear anything, or when he did say something, well, I forgot what he said. Then in the dream a realized it really was summer and I got to stay home for so long and by myself on the weekdays too.I have this weird lump thing in my throat, like that feeling you get after you've cried. Probably just more phlegm.
I've been feeling full all the time now, like not hungry, and my stomach hurts. Kinda crampy..
I would really like to swim before my period starts, hopefully tomorrow. 2 Comments - Post/view comments
Monday, June 13, 2005 . 6/13/2005
Well, I still can't hardly believe it's summer, but after a few days I'll realize it's really 'for real'. I love staying home by myself. It can get boring, and when it does, I sleep. I can watch t.v if there's anything good on.. usually the history channel or animal planet or maybe even a movie. Go on the computer. On furc. On Horizons. On Morrowind. And repeat. Oh yeah.. I forgot shower didn't I.. and swimming, oh yes, swimming.. 0 Comments - Post/view commentsSunday, June 12, 2005 . 6/12/2005
Oh man I love quizesTake the quiz: "What is your Paranormal gift?"
Control over Time
You're a bit controling.. being able to freeze time itself, play it backwards, fast forward it, or even just certain people or things, even yourself! A foutain of youth maybe? But if you abuse it too much, you might wind up witnessing your friends death because you've kept yourself young. Oh well, you'll find new friends and live forever, defending yourself against those who oppose you by freezing them in time.. fun fun. 1 Comments - Post/view comments Take the quiz: "What is your inner Demon?"
Shadow of Hell
ever get the feeling you're being watched? the hairs prickling on the back of your neck? well this is the reason. the shadow of hell makes a person feel dire uncomfort, unseen and extremely sneaky. you need more friends if you got this result... 0 Comments - Post/view comments Take the quiz: "What dragon species are you? (Stunning pics)"
Shadow Dragon
Dark, evil, you are the evil breed of dragon. You lurk within the shadows of the night and attack with surprise. You prefer to stay alone, solitude is your best friend within your deep, dark cave or den. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Saturday, June 11, 2005 . 6/11/2005
 | You scored as chandler. Chandler is the comedian of the group, and prides himself on the fact that he can come up with one-liners on the spot. He gets his kicks by making fun of everyone and everything, including his friends.
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You scored as People. You dont like people much, and youll try to keep away from them.
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Ehh this one's kinda dumb. Especially the choices they have you pick from. I bet they think of Satan as evil, as most people do. What a stupid idiot.
You scored as Going to Be A Demon. You control freak! Posessing people is what you're going to do when your dead- or help out in Hell alongside Satan....you also love to see people squirm! Who doesn't eh?
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 | You scored as Rasputin. You're Rasputin...creepy. You're a dark depraved madman that just can't be killed. Your legions are loyal, and you yourself have a certain loyalty to your dark faith.
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 | You scored as Akasha - Queen of the Damned. You are Akasha from Queen of the Damned. A very powerful and very old soul, you care nothing for the humans of this earth. You long to be with your lover and will kill anyone who gets in your way. Look out for his betrayal...
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 | You scored as Vampire. You are a vampire. Passion and seduction are your hunting campanions. Mystery surrounds you. And you REALLY need to get over yourself.
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I do need to get over myself. I've been having too much pride lately.. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
 | You scored as Mental. Blimey! You are f'''n mad! You are a complete and utter nutter, as they say. You are certifiably and demonstrably mental! Seek mental help (no pun intended), and do it NOW! You are a serious hazard to your surroundings and everyone that gets the misfortune to meet you. Nah, just kidding. You're alright. Some of us just happen to have been born with a rather short fuse. Nothing to get fussy about;)
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 | You scored as Martin Heidegger. You are Martin Heidegger. You are a very wordy person that believes we classify objects by their function, and that community is essential. Once we are in a community, then it is possible for us to differentiate ourselves. You also might have sympathetic feelings towards Nazis.
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 | You scored as Bowling Ball. Unlucky you! Bowling balls are heavy.
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 | You scored as Snake. You're neat. You like slither around and watch for something to attack. You might have a grudge of some kind. You can be very dangrous and people can die as a result of your actions. Be careful, you have venom!
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 | You scored as Freddy Krueger. Possibly the only wise-ass in the group, you appear to be Freddy Krueger, master of nightmares. You're usually the jokester in your group, but all that fooling around hides your true nature: cold blooded, spiky-fingered killer.
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 | You scored as Arwen. You're Arwen Evenstar! This elven princess may not get in on too much action, but she's always optimistic and hopeful for the future. She does what she can to help her love, Aragorn, who is off fighting, and is always supportive of him. "I would rather spend one lifetime with you than face all the ages of this world alone."
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 | You scored as Diseased. The Black Plague was brought on by unhygienic practices-- i.e. people would empty their chamber pot (toilet) out in the street. Lack of concern for your health is something you carry with you through each life until you make a conscious effort to change it, thus implying you could have very well died from disease brought on by unsanitary living conditions.
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 | You scored as Staffordshire Bull Terrier. You are a Staffordshire Bull Terrior, an English equvilant of a Pit Bull. Agressive when threatened, you are spirited, loyal, but challenge all who get in your way.
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 | You scored as Severus Snape. Well you're a tricky one aren't you? Nobody quite has you figured out and you'd probably prefer it stayed that way. That said you are a formidable force by anyone's reckoning, but there is certainly more to you than a frosty exterior and a bitter temper.
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| You scored as Strong Egoism. Your life is very much guided by the concept of Egoism: You work primarily to promote your own interests. “I swear by my life, and my love of it, that I will never live for the sake of another man, nor ask another man to live for mine.” “I am not primarily an advocate of capitalism, but of egoism; and I am not primarily an advocate of egoism, but of reason. If one recognizes the supremacy of reason and applies it consistently, all the rest follows.” --Ayn Rand More info at Arocoun's Wikipedia User Page...
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 | You scored as Wrath.
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 | You scored as Satanism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it. To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan. Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes. Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype. Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism.
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 | You scored as Romanticist. Romanticism encourages society to look backwards to find our solutions. Your rationale is that things were much better a few hundred years ago so we should thus look back to those times and replace them in our modern society. You believe in a simple life and that the complexities of the modern world have turned it upside down.
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 | You scored as Demon. Demon: Darkness is your sanctuary. Demons are many and are all different in appearence and rank. The most common are the ones that feed off of human souls. They love to make someone fall into their inner darkness. Blood, wrath, murder... You name it they love it. These beings don't care who you are, if they set their sights on you, let's just hope you know a good excorist. They kill any love within you and pull you toward their side. By any means possible. You wish for chaos and hate, you are the Demon.
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 | You scored as Darth Vader.
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Friday, June 10, 2005 . 6/10/2005
You are Albert FishWhich Serial Killer are you?
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http://www.carpenoctem.tv/killers/fish.html 0 Comments - Post/view comments Witches/Witchcraft: Name dubbed to the people, especially woman, who were thought to worship Satan.
Pagans/Paganism: Often mistaken for witchcraft, Pagans practice nature spells and 'worship' nature.
WO0O SCHOOL IT OUT! I am so happy.. well not really, because my throat is sore.. what a great way to start out the summer, eh? Anyway, when we were getting on the buses to go home ( IT WAS A HALF DAY :) ) I saw stink/smoke bombs.. or one, and then as I traveled further down the hall there was another one. And the people of the school.. administrators, whatever, just looked at them.. guess they didn't mind, since it WAS the last day and all.
I hope my sore throat and allergies/cold goes away. I'm still not sure which I have. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Wednesday, June 08, 2005 . 6/08/2005
Only 2 more half days now!! I can't wait until Friday.. I just want this week to be over! It feels like it'll go on forever!I've had this discussion on Furc about the mentally challenged; let's just call them retards, shall we?
So my argument was: There is no point in keeping a retard alive. There are a few retards at my school: one in a wheelchair, one that is hideously ugly, one that howls when it gets loud, and a couple others.. well, actually four others. What's their point in life? They're completely dependant on other people, are ugly, and can't (most) can't learn even if a giant turd came rolling at them and that was the only way to escape. They'll get made fun of all their lives, don't have the logic to get a job, or at least a good one they'll actually enjoy, and above that, they're ugly, so they most likely won't find love. What's the point of living when you have so little? It's like keeping a person with no arms and legs alive: What is their use? They contribute nothing to society, nor will they be able to. Yet people "still have hope" they'd survive. If you really loved someone, it would be best to let them die, particularly if they're mentally challenged or extremely handicapped. It's putting the person in misery to keep them alive. It's best to let them die and reincarnate into another body, one that hopefully isn't retarded. I don't think the spirit knows if a child will be born retarded/handicapped.. when someone dies, the spirit would go into a child's body that has just been born, and start the learning process all over again. Sometimes they just (actually we, since we're all spirits inside) are unlucky. But trust me on this: We don't have one life to live, but many. There is evidence. Even if you don't believe in this kind of thing, keep your mind open for new ideas anyway. New things are being discovered all the time, however it just takes an extremely long time for some people to "adapt" to the different, even when it has been discovered ages ago.
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Thursday, June 02, 2005 . 6/02/2005
The upside down cross is not an anti-christian symbol. It is the sign of Peter, for he wanted to be crucified upside down, and therefore, it is the sign of the Pope.So if you wear an inversted cross, you're jewish. Or support the Pope. Even if you don't know it. ;) 2 Comments - Post/view comments I've decided to do that Utopia project, based on Morrowind. I think it's pretty good. I've even included pictures and everything.
The reason why my eyes have been watery: Allergies. This happens mainly doing school, though. I've never has allergies before.. or maybe I have, but it was so faint I didn't notice it.. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Wednesday, June 01, 2005 . 6/01/2005
I have this small project due Friday. I'm not sure if I'm going to do it or not. Maybe if I get bored.. I dunno..Only one more week! The rest of this week and then two full days next week, Monday and Tuesday, and the rest are halfdays for final exams. And then school is out! But before I know it, it will be time to go back again, I'll get depressed again.. Maybe I can convince my mom to let me take online classes so I wouldn't have to go to actual school. 2 Comments - Post/view comments
