Sunday, October 31, 2004 . 10/31/2004

It turns out that Spam thinks I'm a "fucking idiot". I wonder why, because I act a lot like he does, having strong oppinions on everything, etc. I never did anything 'idiotic' besides 'lols' and 'mhm' a lot, but that's me just having fun, so I don't act all serious and 'cranky' all the time.

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Friday, October 29, 2004 . 10/29/2004

Furc just got updated, and I must say it is rather gay, or lame if you prefer. The squirrels are ok and the batwings are a little messed, but the whole new layout of things is definately going to take some getting used to. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Tuesday, October 26, 2004 . 10/26/2004

I feel really terrible, like I don't belong anywhere. Today at school I rolled me eyes at this really stupid fag, because she was acting like she was "all that" and she looked a lot older than she behaved ( this was in math class ). She looked at me and went "don't roll your eyes at me, you right bitch" and some other stuff I couldn't hear because she was mumbling. Now I'm afraid of every girl at school, or at least every girl who looks like they'd be bitchy, because pretty much every girl who ever talked to me had the small hint of it. This fat loser in math class brought it all back though.

I went to get my eyebrows waxed today. It was nice and dark out when the appointment was over. It was so beautiful. It got me thinking how lastnight I was thinking I could just change my life forever and running away into the woods ( we live way back off the road near a lot of woods ) and becoming a "creature of the night". I wouldn't have to worry about school, just the cold, and how I'd get my food. I could scare people and legends of "the wolf girl" would pop up all over. I could hide in the day, because the sun blinds me. I honestly feel more alive at night, and certainly more hyper aswell. I just can't understand the people who like the day and just "love" the sun. It's horrible and very tiring.

I watched the original Dracula last night, and it wasn't as good as I thought it would be. I've seen The Omen 1 and 2 the day before that. The second movie, Damien: The Omen II is pretty good. Damien is cute. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Saturday, October 23, 2004 . 10/23/2004

You are a Black Talon, a breed of black werewolf
that is usually seen in a pack or 2 or more,
they have a muscular frame and are the largest
breed of werewolf. You are normally quiet but
if provoked will be tempted to bite rather than
bark. You prefer the darkness and seclusion of
your den but will venture outside oftern...


Which Breed Of Werewolf Are You?
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0 Comments - Post/view comments I got banned by a beekin today called Zari. She was pissed off at the "Adult content" people were talking of, so I said fuck you, and BAM, there I go for about three or four hours. Great isn't it? Did she ever think I told her that because she was pissing me off? What a retard.

Why is it that some people believe and not believe in ghosts/spirits etc? That's like saying they "believe" there are such things as a type of bird or rabbit. The "world beyond" is just a part of life; it's foolish to say it doesn't exist. It's sad that the supposeably smartest mammal on earth doesn't even know about his own life and what will happen to him. I guess some of us are more evolved than others, brain-wise?

Religion is another weird thing. People used to respect the diaties (I know I spelled that wrong) that revolved around the religion. Now it's just a matter of "believing" and "not believing", which is ridiculous. Now all it creates is war.
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Friday, October 22, 2004 . 10/22/2004

I just came back from watching Edward Scissorhands,and it makes me feel when I was a bit younger, I normally wouldn't hurt people unless neccesary. Now I'm just straight out angry most of the time, and that gets me really sad and depressed. I wish that I was normal, in not being so angry all the time sense. I hate myself for it. Sometimes however it pays off, because it feels good hurting someone when I'm upset. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Thursday, October 21, 2004 . 10/21/2004

If anything, I'm feeling worse today. The second day of that lab thing in science was today, and I didn't have anything done for it, no conclusion or procedure or anything. I didn't even write my prelab thing or do any lab yesturday either. Dreading this class, and also math since there was a quiz/test today, and aerobics, since I didn't feel like praticipating in it and I haven't been for days, I went to the office at the beginning of science, actually before it started, and called my dad. So I went home early. Because of me worrying whether or not I was going to get picked up or not and because of those classes I didn't want to be in, I really did feel sick. I came home and took a nap in my bed for a bit. I still feel kinda crappy.

I have to go to the orthodontist today. They say only once a month and that seems like it's ages, but really it comes so fast. Oh well. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Wednesday, October 20, 2004 . 10/20/2004

I'm beginning to get really sad at school. I look around and I see all these people being themselves ( at least not shy or quiet ), see them have friends etc. It makes me sad because I can't be myself at school. I just get weird. I just want a "gothy" friend, like a guy one.. so I won't feel so sad.

We're doing these labs in science, and I just don't have the heart to do it. I don't have any heart for school work at all. I could just get a job right now as a demonoligist or something of the like. I already have learned all I want to learn. What I want to learn I look in books MYSELF. I don't need idiot people to teach me; I'm not stupid, I know how to look up information I need or am interested in. 2 Comments - Post/view comments

Saturday, October 16, 2004 . 10/16/2004

We went to this sort of "party" ( not many people there, just me, my parents, an aunt, two uncles, grandma and grandpa, and four cousins ). It was okay I guess. We had SLOPPY JOES for dinner, which was crap ( I went to taco bell after ). We could of just went out to eat. Oh yes and the "party" was for grandma and grandpa, for they were going to Florida, since it's getting cold and all.

I wore my contacts today, to the eye doctor's to check the fitting and stuff, and to the little party thing. They felt more comfortable today and I got less tired wearing them, so that's good.

I sorta decorated my room a bit. Put the skull candle I got from Target in my room, rearanged my books in my cupboard thing, threw out the food wrappers I have stored in there ( yes I store food in my room ). And that's pretty much it I guess. Oh, and everyone thinks I should be a comedian when I "grow up". Only problem is, I'm camera shy and can't stand being in front of crowds. I mean, BIG crowds. 1 Comments - Post/view comments

Saturday, October 09, 2004 . 10/09/2004

I got my progress report today. I'm getting bad grades in english and math. My parents act like I care, like I'm some stupid popular prep that wants to do well etc. They are such idiots. On the news yesturday, someone was said to plan on burning the school down, but unfortuneately they got caught, or rather his friends were goody two-shoes taddle-tales.

I shouldn't have to go to school anymore. I'm smart, and I already know what kind of job I want: A medeivalist or demonologist, or even a paranormal expert. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Friday, October 08, 2004 . 10/08/2004

You picked Severus Snape. Oddly charming and not
quite as evil as he pretends to be, Snape has
been to Hell and back and seems proud of it. He
favours black clothes and potions, so don't
expect hugs and teddybears!


Which Harry Potter Bad Guy Is Your Man?
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Dark -- You are a child of the night. You have a
wicked sense of humor, but when you gain
friends they can count on you to regardless.


Where do you belong?
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You came from the darkness. Non-trusting, you most
likely will spend most of your life alone.


Where did you come from?
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Thursday, October 07, 2004 . 10/07/2004

Today was pretty terrible. First of all, in science, I did not get to do this lab that involved fire ( it was just something to see how the burner worked ) because the paper from my LAST class ( I got switched ) wasn't signed. The new teacher gave us a paper to sign however, and I got that signed, so I don't see why I need my old teacher's one. There were other people not able to do the lab either because their prelab wasn't finnished, so we all stood in the back, and still had to wear aprons and goggles.

So this stupid little kid named Demitri, which no one likes and whom eveyone says has a peanut head, sort of "makes fun" of people he likes, as other people say. So he came over and did this slight impression of me then walked over my feet and slappened my face ( my goggles fortunately protected me ). I then gave him a nice swift kick in the ass. He asked "Who you kickin'?" and I said, "you". Then he hit me again and I punched him back. He then said he was sorry, though not in a truely serious way. He's an idiot.

In first hour, sometime we watch these videos because the original teacher's wife had a baby and he's out. Today we were watching something on the ancient egyptians, and the substitute teacher said that if we started talking, we'd have to take 15 notes on it. It stayed quiet for a while but then the stupid black idiots started talking ( they made the past videos we watched pretty much impossible to listen to as well ). And then the TEACHERS ( there are two since there are sometimes "helpers" I guess ) started talking. It's just ridiculous.

Tomorrow there's this peprally or whatever in the afternoon and my mom is picking me up at noon or so so that I don't have to go to it, which I am happy of because they are too roudy and loud etc. It invites people to act dumb. Glad I'll miss it, AND aerobics class wo0o.. and probably english too, my second to last class, before aerobics.

I TYPED A LOT TODAY GO ME WO0O. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Wednesday, October 06, 2004 . 10/06/2004

Black Dragon


Who is your dragon spirit guide?
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The Tranquil River Dragon is your guardian.
Powerful, wise and creative, understanding the
balance of life and death like no other.


What sort of Dragon watches over you?
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You are a black dragon! Master of the shadows and
nightmares. People claim you to be evil but
you're just misunderstood. You just want to be
alone.


Which Dragon resides in your soul? (cool pictures!)
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you are one horny smiley


What Smiley Are You?
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Tuesday, October 05, 2004 . 10/05/2004

You are an Evil Dead Zombie. The spirits of the
dead took over your body in a lonely cabin, and
now it's your job to kick some Ash ass. Sadly,
while you'll succeed in beating the bejeezus
out of Ash repeatedly, he will ultimately wipe
you from existence. You can only be killed by
bodily dismemberment.


What kind of Zombie are you?
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lord of the rings


!!**_WHAT_MOVIE_R_U_FROM_**!!with Pics
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Monday, October 04, 2004 . 10/04/2004

You are a blue dragon! You are reliable and
steady. You are known for being able to work
for long periods of time without tiring. You
are intelligent and very perceptive, and a good
judge of talent. You are good at finding
humans who would make good dragonriders. You
tend to set reasonable goals, and almost always
succeed at what you set out to do.


What color of Pernese dragon are you?
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Your just like my brother Sesshomaru Evil and
Stubbren. You always have to be the best. A
full dog demon not a mix. You only care about
power and power basecailly.


What kind of demon are you?
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LAME-ASS ANIME 0 Comments - Post/view comments You're D-draco!!!


What Harry Potter Character Are YOU!?
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Wow no picture. Oh well. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
You are Long-wang!

Mythological Background: Yes, the dragon represents
everything you think of when you think of a
dragon - fearsome and invincible. Also, it is
greatly respected just because of that fact.
The dragon has a very protective aspect to it.
Even Jupiter reminds you of intense smashing
power. The dragon is almost always surrounded
by rain-bearing clouds and fog; and the
appearance of its constellation always signals
rainfall and lightning. It's also a symbol of
authority worn by the nobility and the imperial
class. Japanese Name: Seiryuu.


Which Chinese Mythological Being Are You?
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Long-wang lols
0 Comments - Post/view comments I don't like my bus ( 38 ). Whenever there's a late bus the people from it get on ours. It's really annoying.

It was nice and cloudy most of today, and cool. So that's good. I have a headache.. Makybe it's because I need a shower, and you know.. the smell.. 0 Comments - Post/view comments

Sunday, October 03, 2004 . 10/03/2004

Goddess of the Night. Beautiful yet a strange
darkness and sadness lurk about you.


What element would you rein over? (For Girls)
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Your eye color is dark blue. You rely on your logic
solely, and may have more mature interests than
many of your friends and family your age. You
can sometimes also be interverted and lonely
from a lack of understanding with people, and
can be rather frustrated with some types of
folke. Some may describe you as cold and
distant, and you are honest with how you feel
about things.


What Color Eyes Should You Have? ( With Anime Pictures ^-^ )
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You represent... anger.
Mad at the world, eh? You have a tendency to...
freak out easily. Overly emotional about
everything, you're most prone to bouts of
cruelty and moodiness. Other people may be
afraid of the fact that you explode so easily,
but at least you're honest... even if you're
honest about not liking anything.


What feeling do you represent?
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You have Black Wings! Your feathers are dark, raven
black, which can also be spiny and scaly. No
one really knows why your feathers are this
dark, because you always conceal yourself with
a bubble. A great sadness surrounds you, and
you take it out on others and the world. In
Spite of your beauty, your inside is twisted
and dead, because you were hurt so badly that
youre heart couldnt take it. Before, your wings
were white, and slowly, when your life was
changing, so was the color. You have no
friends, because you cant let anyone get too
close to you. Grief fills your heart, though
anger blinds your eyes.


What Color are your wings?(Mainly for Girls)Beautiful Pix!
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You are the color turquoise. A fairly tempermental
person, you're either upset or tranquil most of
the time. You can be as calm as your color.
You're a mysterious person, yet somehow
outgoing. You're balanced, simply put. You're
somewhat bold. You're generous and
sophisticated--but never ever snobby. You're
lively and rich in personality and attitude.
You're a beautiful person, aside from the fact
that you're a perfectionist and painfully
honest. But life is good to you!


What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!)
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Saturday, October 02, 2004 . 10/02/2004

I'm kind of getting sick of typing in here. Not like anyone really reads it anyhow. Nothing major or 'cool' ever happens, so unless I see a ghost or something, I'm not likely to type in here..

I got my contacts today, which is about time. Now I'll have to get used to wearing them again.

Oh yes and I watched the first Harry Pothead today. Snape is so hot. Mmk. 2 Comments - Post/view comments