Tuesday, October 31, 2006 . 10/31/2006
I think I've probably posted something like this before already, but I will again. Call me insane, but I think Saw has a good life lesson. It makes you think.. would you rather die, or live a life you take for granted? Imagine some emo wanting to watch Saw. It's about death, so it's all good. He watches it, and then it makes him think for once.Anyway.. I really wish I had some friends to go to a Halloween party tonight or something. I love Halloween, and I want to spend it with someone other than myself. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Saturday, October 28, 2006 . 10/28/2006
I went to the mall yesturday, and it was fun. It was pretty nerve-racking too because of all the people there, but I wanted people to notice me anyway. I tend to get uncomfortable when people look at me, yet I wanted them to. In fact, I actually when to Target after I was done with the mall, just so more people would notice me. This has made me realise that if I didn't have social anxiety I'd be an attention whore.Other than shopping, my parents and I went to my cousins' house for dinner. I wasn't particularly hungry since I had Mcdonald's not too long ago, but I did have a few olives.
There were other people there besides my aunt, uncle and two cousins; my grandpa and grandma from my mom's side were there too, and the "family" priest and his wife. I say "family" because me and my parents don't go to church, and damn, am I proud of it.
I had lots of fun when I was there. I was talking, I was funny.. and that made me feel like somebody other than just "the quiet girl". I find it easier to talk among members of the same family, even if I haven't really met them before. I still get nervous and a bit anxious, but I'm glad that I could make people laugh, and not at me, either. Actually, among people I am comfortable with, I usually am "the funny one".
When my grandma called about going to my cousins' house, I didn't know it was about that at first. I was at the computer and heard her voice on the answering machine, and got up and ran excitedly to the phone and hoped someone had died. I replayed the message and was a bit disapointed, but not much. Some.. hell, I think anyone reading this would wonder why I was hoping for someone to have died. It's because I wanted an excuse to dress up all nice and go somewhere. Mean, I know.. but for the record, I haven't hoped anyone I liked, such as my parents, my aunt and uncle and my two cousins that I know, has died. Just people I barely know. Which is still mean. Oh well. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Thursday, October 26, 2006 . 10/26/2006
I've been having a shitload of weird dreams lately. Of a whale swimming under our front yard, of my favorite cat dead.. I have these weird dreams everynight. It could be because I have a lot of thoughts in my head, so I'll do something about it.I'm often worried that my favorite cat, or even his brother, will die or get shot in the woods. I think any rational person would.. I mean, it's dangerous out there. I would love to just keep both cats inside, but like I said in an earlier post, my dad is being an idiot about it.
And about my dad.. I don't really hate him. It's just that some things he does are annoying. Well, make that most things.. but I don't absolutely hate him for it. I hate the fact that he can be completely ignorant, but not him as a person.
I keep thinking about how other people probably think I'm emo. I mean, look at my blog layout, how I mention I have no friends, etc. It's practically emo written all over. But why should I care what other people think? I very rarely even get any comments in this thing, yet I keep thinking about how pathetic I might seem to people. Who the hell am I kidding though? Who would read this crap?
Anyway.. that's all I have to say for now, I guess. 0 Comments - Post/view comments Alright, I feel like a fucking loser typing in this blog all the time, and I should be doing my school work, but I found something incredibly stupid and I just have to say something.
Taken from a LiveScience.com article:
A researcher has come up with some simple math that sucks the life out of the vampire myth, proving that these highly popular creatures can't exist.
University of Central Florida physics professor Costas Efthimiou's work debunks pseudoscientific ideas, such as vampires and zombies, in an attempt to enhance public literacy. Not only does the public believe in such topics, but the percentages are at dangerously high level, Efthimiou told LiveScience.
Legend has it that vampires feed on human blood and once bitten a person turns into a vampire and starts feasting on the blood of others.
Efthimiou's debunking logic: On Jan 1, 1600, the human population was 536,870,911. If the first vampire came into existence that day and bit one person a month, there would have been two vampires by Feb. 1, 1600. A month later there would have been four, and so on. In just two-and-a-half years the original human population would all have become vampires with nobody left to feed on.
If mortality rates were taken into consideration, the population would disappear much faster. Even an unrealistically high reproduction rate couldn't counteract this effect.
"In the long run, humans cannot survive under these conditions, even if our population were doubling each month," Efthimiou said. "And doubling is clearly way beyond the human capacity of reproduction."
So whatever you think you see prowling around on Oct. 31, it most certainly won't turn you into a vampire.
You're kidding me, right? A researcher came up with this? Is this article a joke? Anyone who has the ability to think logically could figure this out. It almost makes me wonder how long this "researcher" took to come up with his conclusion. He even put in exact dates and everything. Seriously, does this person honestly think that so many people take vampires this goddamn literally? Poor bastard could have done so much worthwhile things with the time it took to figure this useless shit out.
The belief of vampires is "dangerously high"? What kind of 'high' is THIS guy on? Since when do peoples' beliefs affect you (unless some religious extremist comes along)?
Besides, original vampires weren't like that. They were spirits, feeding off of people to sustain them in the afterlife. I'm not thinking spirits would be able to reproduce, unless some scientific breakthrough has proved otherwise, or something.
And the modern view of vampires is that they are pretty much dead, right? That's why they need blood, so they can "live". You don't need some "debunking logic" to prove that dead people can't get jiggy with it, appealing as that may seem (Honestly though, the idea of romantic vampires IS appealing. Makes me wish there really were vampires, and not just some phony goth kids either).
A number of diseases could develope for the vampire aswell, given the vitamin D deficiency. Come to think of it, I probably have one of those diseases right now. Damn.
In other news, I've been having REALLY weird dreams lately. Too weird to explain, though... sorry. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Tuesday, October 24, 2006 . 10/24/2006
I stumbled upon this site, i-mockery, and this is definately going in my favorites. I especially like their mockery of churches, goths, and "metalheads".I don't feel like typing anymore now because my parents are being fucking idiots. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Saturday, October 21, 2006 . 10/21/2006
I was supposed to go to the animal shelter today with my friend and walk the dogs, but while I was in bed, my mom woke me up and said that my friend wouldn't be going since "she's at her friend's house or something". I told my mom I wouldn't be going either since I didn't feel to well. The hairdresser that did my hair last week had a cold, and I'm starting to feel the symptoms of it. So my mom and dad went to the animal shelter and they are walking the dogs now instead.This thing with my friend struck me as rather rude. She chose her other friend over me, despite saying she would come to the animal shelter with me every week. Apparently, I'm some boring loser. So, she can just forget about going to the shelter anymore. I won't be going either.
Am I meant to be lonely like this all my life? -.- 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Friday, October 20, 2006 . 10/20/2006
Here is some information regarding the history of Halloween:One obvious question about Halloween is, "What does the word itself mean?" The name is actually a shortened version of "All Hallows' Even," the eve of All Hallows' Day. "Hallow" is an Old English word for "holy person," and All Hallows' Day is simply another name for All Saints' Day, the day Catholics commemorate all the saints. At some point, people began referring to All Hallows' Even as "Hallowe'en" and then simply "Halloween."
Following the Jewish tradition, Christians observe many holy days from sundown on one day until sundown on the following day. This is where we get the practice of celebrating Christmas Eve, New Year's Eve, etc. The direct predecessor of modern-day Halloween is the festivity that began All Saints' Day, which started at sundown on October 31.
While it takes its name from All Saints' Day, modern Halloween is actually a combination of several different traditions. In fact, a lot of the things we do on Halloween predate Christianity entirely.
Most of the traditions of Halloween date back to Samhain (sow-en), the ancient Celtic New Year. Samhain, which translates to "end of summer," occurred around the end of October, when the weather started to get cold. At its heart, Samhain was an observance of all the important things that were happening during this change of seasons.
The Celtic people, who came together as a society around 800 B.C., kept sheep and cattle. When the weather got colder, the shepherds brought their animals down from the hills to closer pastures. This shift changed daily life significantly. In the winter months, everybody stayed inside or close to home, working on handcrafts and spending time together. Samhain also marked the final harvest of the year, an event commemorated by festivals in many cultures.
Celtic tradition held that turning points, times when things change from one state to another, had magical properties. Samhain marked the biggest turning point of the year -- a change in the weather as well as a shift in everybody's lives. The Celts believed this magical time opened up a sort of connection to the dead. Those souls that had passed through the ultimate turning point, the shift from life to death. They believed the world of the living was closest to the world of the dead at the time of Samhain, and that the spirits of the dead traveled again among the living. A lot of the activities of the Samhain festival were connected to this belief, and many of those practices evolved into modern-day Halloween traditions.
All Saint's Day
Christians have been honoring their virtuous dead from the earliest days of the religion. In traditional Roman Catholicism, exceedingly virtuous men and women may be canonized as saints in the afterlife. Since they are endowed with holiness, saints are close to God, and may perform miracles on earth. Roman Catholics, and some other Christians, honor saints and ask them for guidance in daily life.
Catholics commemorate many saints on their own "saints day," often the anniversary of their death. But with thousands of canonized saints, only a small percentage are recognized regularly. In the seventh century, Pope Boniface IV officially established All Saints' Day in order to honor all the saints at one time. History records such a sacred day before Boniface's time, but it wasn't widely observed.
Originally, Christians observed All Saints' Day on May 13. But in the eighth century, Pope Gregory III moved it to November 1. Officially, the Church chose this new date to mark the papal dedication of a church honoring the saints. But many historians believe the Church really moved the observance to correspond with Samhain and other pagan fall festivals.
The Catholic Church had a long-standing policy of incorporating non-Christian traditions into its holidays in order to bring people into the Catholic faith. This included moving the dates of Christian holidays to those of established non-Christian occasions. Many historians believe, for example, that the church set Christmas on December 25 so that it would correspond with pagan winter solstice festivals.
In any case, when All Saints' Day moved to November 1, the church did begin to incorporate Samhain traditions into the holy day's activities. This helped bring descendants of the ancient Celts into Christianity, but it posed some problems for the church. Much of the Samhain traditions centered on the supernatural and spirit world, ideas that don't have much of a place in Christianity. Recognizing saints, who were by definition deceased, covered a lot of the same ground, but the converts were still fascinated by the idea of their familiar dead returning to the world of the living.
Despite some unease in the church, many supernatural ideas persisted in All Saints' Day Eve celebrations, making the occasion a remarkable combination of Christian and pagan beliefs. At the end of the 10th century, the church tried to give these traditions a little more direction by establishing All Souls' Day, an occasion to recognize all Christian dead.
All Souls' Day
All Souls' Day, observed on November 2, is celebrated with Masses and festivities in honor of the dead. The living pray on behalf of Christians who are in purgatory, the state in the afterlife where souls are purified before proceeding to heaven. Souls in purgatory, who are members of the church just like living Christians, must suffer so that they can be purged of their sins. Through prayer and good works, living members of the church may help their departed friends and family.
After its introduction, this holiday did sate many Catholics' interest in death and the supernatural. But the unchristian idea of wandering spirits persisted in some areas, as did the festivity atmosphere of Samhain. Conceding that they could not completely get rid of the supernatural elements of the celebrations, the Catholic Church began characterizing the spirits as evil forces associated with the devil. This is where we get a lot of the more disturbing Halloween imagery, such as evil witches and demons.
All Souls' Day lives on today, particularly in Mexico, where All Hallows' Eve, All Saints' Day and All Souls' Day are collectively observed as "Los Dias de los Muertos" (The Days of the Dead). First and foremost, the Days of the Dead is a time when families fondly remember the deceased. But it is also a time marked by festivities, including spectacular parades of skeletons and ghouls. In one notable tradition, revelers lead a mock funeral procession with a live person inside a coffin.
This masquerade is closely connected to the celebration of Halloween, as are other elements of All Souls' Day...
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Thursday, October 19, 2006 . 10/19/2006
Another lesson finally arrived - World History. I am so happy that it isn't American history.. it's as boring as hell. Besides, I really do like studying the different cultures of the world, how early humans thought, etc. It includes the religions of the different cultures including Christianity, and with this I'll be able to piece together history and decide whether or not this religion is just another creation myth.While studying, I looked out the window and saw one of my cats, Doots, with some small animal in his mouth. He then threw it on the ground and pawed at it. I put on some shoes, brought my blanket with me since it was cold, and went outside to see what kind of animal it was. Turned out to be this cute little mouse. At one point, the mouse got on its haunches and jumped towards Doots, trying to intimidate him.. that has got to be one of the funniest sights I have ever seen. Doots just batted at the thing, with no obvious intentions of killing it. He would often just sit there and stare at the mouse. As I bent down on my knees, Doots came up to me and rolled over affectionately. I took this time to get up close to the mouse, but not too close. The poor thing was breathing heavily, fightened. Knowing the animal could carry some disease, and transfer it to me if it bit me, I carefully stroked it with a leaf at first. Doots kept coming to the mouse and batting at it, making it squeek, so eventually I picked the little guy up - carefully - and placed him more near the woods (and yes, I did wash my hands after I came inside).
Picking Doots up, I went inside, then let my dog out. While I was doing this, Doots sneakily jumped outside and headed back for the mouse. His brother, Pie, followed suit. I gave up on keeping the cats away from the poor animal. After all, they were only following instinct.
I went back to reading, then caught site of my cats. Pie was sitting there watching as Doots repeatedly flipped the mouse in the air. I went outside again to see whether it was dead or not, and it almost was. At the last few moments of its life, its little legs were twitching and he occasionally lifted up his head. Finally, Doots jumped in, grabbing the mouse by the neck, and threw it around. It was dead.
Pie came and investigated the dead mouse as Doots walked away. He played with it at first, and eventually started to eat it. I watched out of curiosity and heard bones snap as my cat dug in. Seeing all those organs was interesting.
Within only minutes, Pie ate half the mouse, pawed at it for awhile, then walked away.
I figure that my cats do this all the time when they're outside, and so far they haven't caught anything. Same for our other outdoor cats we had. I keep telling my dad that it isn't a good idea to keep letting them out; you never know what could happen. He always responds with some sort of "psh" noise and says the cats will go nuts if left inside, and besides that, who would clean the litterbox? I looked up on cats.about.com for information on why you should keep your cats indoors. It seems my dad needs some professional to confirm the truth, regardless if I say it or not. Apparently I'm just the stupid teenager who knows nothing and comes up with assumptions. I fucking hate him, except for the fact that he buys me stuff. Yes, I am spoiled.
It's so hard to argue with him since he always makes these stupid sounds a little kid would make, and he repeats my name when I explain or try to explain something, then comes up with such a stupid response that I don't even know how to reply. It's so damn frustrating. All I want to do is have a civillized discussion, and he ends up turning it into some arguement because he acts like a little kid who believes there is a Santa, and refuses to believe otherwise, no matter if logic is involved or not. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Wednesday, October 18, 2006 . 10/18/2006
Sometimes I wonder why the hell I even bother to write in this stupid blog. Who is going to read all this crap? Why should I have a public blog when I mostly write in it for myself? Oh well. I don't care. And if anyone reading this doesn't care - move on, nothing to see here.Still there? You must have no life, or are severely bored. Like me! Don't you feel special? Come on, admit it, I know you do.
Anyway..
Lately I've been feeling like a ghost trapped in time, or something. It's been gloomy the past few days, which I like, but.. I just feel more alone than usual. Sure, I have my two dogs with me and my two cats, and my parents when they come home from work.. but lately I felt that I just really want to spend time by myself, reading and thinking and sleeping or whatever.
It's scary for me to think about the future. How will I ever go through life with social anxiety? Some may say to just "get out there and face your fears", but I've been doing that for years in school and it does nothing to help me. Maybe it's because I wasn't brave enough to take risks and actually go up and talk to someone. I was afraid of getting ridiculed.
What will I do for a job? To be honest, I really have no idea. I could work at Borders for awhile, but I couldn't do that all my life.. and what would a philosopher do, sit there and think all day? Come up with theories? Do they even get payed? I often find myself hoping the world will somehow end before I need to head out on my own.
What is the point in thinking about why we're here, and how the world started? Will that really get us anywhere? They are just theories, and science can't prove nor disprove either. I think it's because people need some reason for living. We fear the unknown, but at the same time are curious about it. Many times I found myself thinking, "What if we lived inside some computer, and aren't really real at all?" Something like The Matrix.. and, years later, I found that some other people were wondering the same thing. I had no idea there were other people out there that had just a crazy, weird mind as mine.
Maybe people are just taking this whole "why are we living" thing too far. Maybe we're just here to live, reproduce, and die. Maybe it's nothing more than that. But I also find myself wondering.. what's the point in just being here to reproduce and die? Why do things exist? It just makes my mind spin.
I wonder if thousands of years from now, people will come across this blog. Or any other blog, for that matter. Would people think our lives are strange, even fascinating? Will my home be destroyed from years of weathering, my things buried, and will people come across it and report their findings? Study them, tried to figure out how we lived? What will movies be viewed as, ancient ways of documenting things? Will The Lord of the Rings become some new holy bible that worships Frodo or Gandalf? If so, will rebels rise from this and claim to worship Sauron? Will people take this like it is all very real, like people in various religions do today? Or perhaps the belief in gods will be gone, and people will finally understand that gods are just myth. Or are they? Why the fuck am I even bothering to wonder about all this? 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Tuesday, October 17, 2006 . 10/17/2006
My school things still haven't arrived, and I am stuck doing nothing. I should be at school, instead of on my ass all day. My things should arrive any day now though..I posted something about a video on 9/11 conspiracies quite some time ago, and I actually bought it. I cannot believe how fucking blind I was. Though it did not take me this long to figure out it was bull; I just didn't feel like mentioning anything. But now since I have nothing better to do, I will.
Bah, screw it, I don't feel like typing.
All I can say is that I admit I was stupid. I've learned from that mistake and am moving on. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Monday, October 16, 2006 . 10/16/2006
What is this, a joke? Maybe I'm being ignorant here, but what is explained on that site makes no sense to me at all.For example:
"A 15-year-old girl attempts to ban circus elephants in Denver. A rash of adolescent-driven, animal-rights-related vandalism hits California. A twelve-year-old boy passes the hat for animal rights.. Is there any doubt that the animal rights movement is targeting your kids?"
What the fuck is so bad about enforcing animal rights (minus the vandalism part)? Vandalism for the sake of animal rights.. seriously, what the hell? What logic is there behind all this? It is also stated that if there was to be found a cure for AIDs via animal testing, they would be against it. This makes no sense.
I'm all for stopping how inhumanely slaughterhouses operate, but these people, if it is true, are going a bit far.
It is said that they kill about 97% of all adoptable animals, because "they have other financial priorities". What is the logic behind all this? If they would be against a cure for AIDs via a laboratory rat, how are they any better than dogs and cats?
I still don't believe all these claims this site is making. Not at all. If PETA has been like this, wouldn't have they been shut down by now? 1 Comments - Post/view comments I'm halfway through the book Spook, and I love it. Brought to you by the same author of Stiff, Mary Roach tackled the afterlife in a scientific matter, making it humorous all the way. I haven't read Stiff yet, though I remember my mom got the book awhile ago. I'll have to read that next.
Spook has got me thinking, thinking about my theories involving the afterlife. I do think there is one, I really do.. there has to be. Our thoughts, our conciousness.. is energy. When our body ceases to work, that energy has no more reason to stay. Remember: energy can neither be created nor can it be destroyed. But where exactly this energy goes, I am not sure. Involving a tragic death, the conciousness may very well stay at the place it took place. Fear is one of the strongest emotions, so therefore a scared person would undoubtedly emit energy. This energy would be used by the spirit, and with it, can make things happen, whether it be noises or the moving of objects, or even the appearance of a full apparition.
This book has also got me thinking how I'd like to read all the books about horror and the supernatural, which is impossible I know. I'd like to learn Latin so that I may read old and forgotten books, I would like to live forever so that I may read all there is to read on the paranormal and the like. I want to be the smartest person there ever was. As of now, I am only just scratching the surface of what all there is to know about the unknown.
Oh yeah, and I drew this lastnight.
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| You Are Creepy |
 Serial killers would run away from you in a flash. |
| You are 87% Taurus |
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| Your Rising Sign is Pisces |
 Dreaming and introspective, you're often lost in your thoughts. Which is okay by you... you're inner world is pretty darn awesome. And while you are inwardly confident, sometimes you seem a bit unsure. People often handle you more delicately than they need to. You love luxury, and even if you're a bit broke, you want things to look "rich." Mysterious and demure, you keep secrets about yourself to remain an enigma. |
Top Ten Signs You're a Fundamentalist Christian
10 - You vigorously deny the existence of thousands of gods claimed by other religions, but feel outraged when someone denies the existence of yours.
9 - You feel insulted and "dehumanized" when scientists say that people evolved from other life forms, but you have no problem with the Biblical claim that we were created from dirt.
8 - You laugh at polytheists, but you have no problem believing in a Triune God.
7 - Your face turns purple when you hear of the "atrocities" attributed to Allah, but you don't even flinch when hearing about how God/Jehovah slaughtered all the babies of Egypt in "Exodus" and ordered the elimination of entire ethnic groups in "Joshua" including women, children, and trees!
6 - You laugh at Hindu beliefs that deify humans, and Greek claims about gods sleeping with women, but you have no problem believing that the Holy Spirit impregnated Mary, who then gave birth to a man-god who got killed, came back to life and then ascended into the sky.
5 - You are willing to spend your life looking for little loopholes in the scientifically established age of Earth (few billion years), but you find nothing wrong with believing dates recorded by Bronze Age tribesmen sitting in their tents and guessing that Earth is a few generations old.
4 - You believe that the entire population of this planet with the exception of those who share your beliefs -- though excluding those in all rival sects - will spend Eternity in an infinite Hell of Suffering. And yet consider your religion the most "tolerant" and "loving."
3 - While modern science, history, geology, biology, and physics have failed to convince you otherwise, some idiot rolling around on the floor speaking in "tongues" may be all the evidence you need to "prove" Christianity.
2 - You define 0.01% as a "high success rate" when it comes to answered prayers. You consider that to be evidence that prayer works. And you think that the remaining 99.99% FAILURE was simply the will of God.
1 - You actually know a lot less than many atheists and agnostics do about the Bible, Christianity, and church history - but still call yourself a Christian. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Saturday, October 14, 2006 . 10/14/2006
I didn't go to the animal shelter today. My mom has been trying to contact my friend all week (she has no answering machine). That was one of the reasons I refused to go. The other was that I was extremely tired. We had to leave by 10 in the morning and I couldn't sleep very well lastnight.I keep thinking how amazingly stupid it is to take religion literally. Lastnight I had this debate sort of thing with my dad on Christianity. He was browsing through the channels on tv and there was some show on the history channel called "Jesus' Miracles" or something similar. He knows I think the whole Jesus thing to be incredibly stupid, so he says jokingly "there you go!" I said that Jesus had no miracles. He responds by saying my name all loud. I go onto saying that things a long time ago were exhagerated and shouldn't be taken so literally. He asked me how I thought the world came to being, then, and I replied "evolution". He said "NOOOOOO", and I asked him, "why not?" He asked me how I thought the human brain has evolved to being so smart. He just answered his own damn question there; through evolution, yet he wouldn't believe it. I told him that there is so much evidence out there that evolution has, and still is, taking place. He shook his head, kept looking at me like some little kid that thought he knew everything, and said "Noooooo". He then asked me, "how do you think people from different times and different places wrote the same thing?" Simple. The bible has been rewritten so many times, or translated so many times, and he didn't believe me. I told him of the horridness contained in the Old Testiment and how it was rewritten to sound more "good". He didn't buy that either. Apparently, he hasn't read his own bible. I kept telling him to learn history again, and he said he had. Yeah, "history" you learned in your private school.
I went on to say that believing in the bible and taking it literally was like taking Greek mythology literally. Again he said "noooo", and went on with, "Greek mythology is just that, mythology. The bible isn't called 'Mythology bible'". Seriously, what the fuck? This, my friends, is ignorance at its best (or worst).
People that long ago DID believe there were gods, as that was the only explaination for how things worked back then. Therefore, believing some god made the world is literally "Sooooo last century".
However, I still question whether this Jesus was purely a mythological creation or based on an actual person. There is a saying that all myths have some basis in fact. This Jesus could have taught morals that should be practiced in human nature, or perhaps he was some poser looking for fame. Either way, I highly doubt his "miracles" are to be taken literally. Since the bible has been translated numerous times, some of the meaning of what was written, has been lost. Like I stated earlier, it is a bit extreme to think that a god created the universe. This was more likely an attempt from ancient peoples in trying to explain how the world started than anything else.
Some people are brainwashed for life and cannot think for themselves. Others break free from this. What would you rather have, a world with blind, ignorant fools, or people who can actually use their brain? 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Friday, October 13, 2006 . 10/13/2006
I've been thinking how stupid religion is (again). If you ask me, religious people are living in the ancient days or middle ages. Thinking a god exists and made the world is just bullshit. If Christianity hadn't taken over, some of today's most well-known Greek mythologies would be believed in instead.In the old testiment, horrible things are written about what Jesus would do to sinners, and many unrealistic things such as a verse that, if used in modern english, would translate to "men are higher than women and may do with them what they please". Later on people had to rewrite this with something less drastic.. but if this god really does exist, then people rewriting his book isn't going to change the god himself, now will it? This right here is what you would call "playing god". Is that not a sin?
Some people pick from the bible what they believe to be right and say the rest to be foolishness. If people can decide what is right and wrong, why do they need this bible anyway? It was either a book of morals, Jesus being a fictional character that teached them, or it was just plain fantasy like Greek mythology. Of course it is also possible that Jesus was indeed a real person, but the "miracles" he performed, like many things in old texts, were most likely exhagerated. People long ago did not know how things worked and so resorted to supernatural explainations.
Today though, there are mountains upon mountains of evidence that evolution did indeed take place, and is still taking place. There is no reason at all to believe any supernatural being created the universe. Though I do wonder how the very first molecule came to being.. perhaps they were always there. Makes your head spin.
And what of private schools? Ridiculous. These people are treating their children like robots. They program into them what they should and shouldn't believe, force nonsense stories onto them and tell them they are true. A child at a young age will believe almost anything he or she is told. It would be better to teach them how to spell, how to do math, history... instead of wasting time on a story. This is like idolising the Tortoise and the Hare and being told that it was a true story. It had a moral, yes, but that doesn't mean it actually took place.
If heaven and hell really did exist, I would rather suffer in eternal flame than spend all of eternity with an evil god and his damn "sheep" that couldn't think for themselves if their lives depended on it.
Christianity is not the only ridiculous religion, of course. Most religions (ones that involve a god or higher being anyway) are filled with rubbish. Like Islam, for example. Their god says that if non-believers were to be killed, then the person who did the killing would go to live in paradise when he died. In other words, Allah is some evil being and his followers are his hitmen. Instead of money, they'd get virgins. Any person in their right mind could easily identify this as a bunch of bull.
Edit - Woah, I just found this film. Damn. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Thursday, October 12, 2006 . 10/12/2006
I'll type a long, meaningful post tomorrow. I don't feel like it right now so I'll just paste another quiz.| Your Wrath Quotient: 60% |
 Ouch! You've got a bit of a temper going on there, don't you? Just make sure to keep your revenge fantasies just that... fantasies only! |
Wednesday, October 11, 2006 . 10/11/2006
A few days ago I went with my mom to Borders, and I got a couple books. One I finished within only a few days.. was a bit over 300 pages long. The title? The Demonologist. This is probably THE most stupid book I've ever read besides The Da Vinci Code. The author tries to sortof "rewrite history". I don't care if it's just fiction; it can lead stupid people to believe that what they are reading are actual facts about the religion and it's history. Just look at The Da Vinci Code.Basically, the plot of the story is this: Some rock star becomes posessed. He feels scratching in his head and has hallucinations and whatnot. Later we learn that he is possesed by Satan. But why, you may ask? Well, this one kid becomes possesed earlier in the story by a demon named Allieb. This Allieb wants twelve of the greatest demons to enter his body, and these are "Satan's minions", and Satan himself. What is really stupid is that one of these "minions" is Lucifer. Don't get me wrong, but didn't Lucifer become Satan? Anyhow, Satan then becomes some kind of hero in the story by taking his minions back from the possesed boy and disapeared back into hell. The rock star was merely his "vehicle" for getting his minions back.
Earlier on, some "sacrifice" was performed at a local church. It involved killing a goat and making a pentagram out of its entrails. There's this priest that explains it isn't Satanists. He goes on to say something about how Satanists in general don't intend any harm, but rather perform black masses and worship the devil in secret. Last I checked, Satanism was a worshipping of the self, unless of course you are referring to posers.
The cult responsible for the sacrifice, he says, is a cult of demonology, "the worship of demons, not Satan". Oookay.. demonology is the STUDY of demons, not the worhip of them. I kept saying to myself that it's just fiction, but come on.. Anything with "ology" at the end basically means "the study of". Like dragonology, egyptology, etc.
If it weren't for the hooded people in the book I most likely would have stopped reading it after the priest claimed demonology to be the worhips of demons.
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The Grim Reaper
You got Death, the head of all reapers. He wanders his cemetary, & creates grave thousands of years before the spirit belonging to it show up. He can take whatever soul he likes, but prefers the ones who are held accountable for the 7 deadly sins. He has a young girl who helps him dig the graves, whos name is Angora. Grim is not evil, but nor is he forgiving...
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Saturday, October 07, 2006 . 10/07/2006
We went to the animal rescue place today, and it was pretty fun I guess. We were in this barn-type place and this lady was instructing us on how to properly walk dogs. That dog there was really pretty.. anyway, so we were standing there, there were about ten or more people, and we had to stand there for over an hour. She also had us practice walking the dog infront of the other people, which is something I feared would happen. It turned out to be okay, and I think I did pretty good. It make me feel better that pretty much everyone there was about as nervous as I was.The lady watched each of us closely as we walked the dog and pointed out errors. She also said she was matching people up with certain dogs based on personality, and I can't wait to see what dog I'm paired up with. There's one dog there, a big brindle dog, that I'm hoping I'll be paired with. She was rescued from Katrina.
There were cats there aswell, along with some kittens. They were so small and cute! I'd rather handle cats than dogs, but I do love all animals.
My friend hasn't changed much. At the animal shelter, she seemed to talk really easily to other people. It made me feel kinda sad that I couldn't do that, but not for long because of all the cute cats.
She has Homecoming tonight, and is going to be out until 11 pm. This made me feel like a bit of a loser since all I do is stay inside and sit at the computer or read or something. But that's okay, I'm different and I like it. Though I do worry a little whether I was boring or not compared to her other friends..
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| Your Pride Quotient: 74% |
 You're beyond proud - you think you're honorary royalty. And while you may be nice on occasion, it's usually just to get what you want. |
| Your Sketchiness Factor |
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| Your Envy Quotient: 66% |
 You are quite the jealous person, even if you don't know it. And the true bummer is: you're too envious to really appreciate what you have going on. Just remember, no one has the perfect life. So love the one you have! |
Thursday, October 05, 2006 . 10/05/2006
| Your Dominant Intelligence is Intrapersonal Intelligence |
 Reflective and thoughtful, you enjoy spending time alone. You are good at analyzing yourself - and knowing your true feelings. Totally self aware, you are in tune with your dreams and desires. A spiritual and philopsophical person, your inner calmness inspires and helps others. You would make a great philosopher, researcher, or theorist. |
Wednesday, October 04, 2006 . 10/04/2006
A little earlier today, I was browsing the Ebaums forums. I've noticed that quite a lot of people are going through the same problems that I am. It's weird, because I came on the computer, crying because of how lonely I am (sounds emo I know), and I noticed these threads. Someone also left a comment to one of my posts, and no one has done that in a really long time. Please, if you have anything to say, say it.I used to think I was the only person out there who even bothered to question why we were here, and the only person to read odd or obscure texts. The only sixteen-year-old, anyway. I figured older people in their seventies or something would contemplate on these matters, but that's simply not true. I'm not the only one. There are people out there who think in the same way that I do. Perhaps we are all connected somehow.
Why are we on this earth, anyway? Yes, to procreate.. but why? What is our purpose? What is anythings' purpose? Why do things have to.. exist? It just makes my mind spin. What is my purpose, to be lonely all the time? No, I personally don't think so. I can honestly say that I see myself changing the world somehow, and for the better. I don't know. 0 Comments - Post/view comments I hate celebrities - or the media, at least.
Many music videos are based off of how good looking people are, all the paparazzi, etc. It makes me feel like if I'm not a celebrity, I'm worthless. Or if I don't have pretty makeup on all the time I'm worthless.
And those ProActive commercials.. uhg. They have these pretty, perfect people with the most perfect skin you can imagine. Of course it's the makeup, no one can look that good without coverage.
I also hate how on commercials for clearing scrubs and whatnot that the people on there are washing their face, are all happy, and have no blemishes whatsoever, not even any redness. This makes me feel as if I should be perfect like that and makes me feel like shit, even if I know I'm not ugly. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Fang, Guardian of the Underworld
A very serious soul who only shows affection to his owner. Having multiple tails symbolizing many of his strenghths and ability to control earth, Fang has no wings and little need for magic except for healing spells.
You are a SAD/DEPRESSED PERSON!
You are quiet, lonely, a dreamer, creative, and a sad person. You are polite to others but don't have many friends so you are generally a sad person. You are probably thought of as the weird spazz-like person so most people stay away from you because they are afraid of people who are different, so in turn this makes you a loner and a little sad or depressed.
I took a shower early yesturday, at around eight in the morning, since I didn't take one the day before. When I was shampooing and conditioning my hair, I noticed, and not for the first time either, that there's a lot of breakage. I've been asking my mom to buy me anti-breakage shampoo but she's been giving me other stuff for color-treated hair, which only makes the brown in it look more vibrant. I don't want that, I want it to look black. Hopefully soon I'll be able to get a touch-up and have black lowlights applied to my hair. My mom is going to make an appointment for herself first though, since she hasn't been to the salon since July, and it would be expensive for both of us to go.
Anyhow, later that day I began to feel all dirty again. That's why I don't like taking showers early in the morning or even in the early afternoon; I end up feeling dirty by the time I go to bed, and I like to feel clean. I did take a second shower yesturday at around six or so.
Sometimes I really wish I still went to regular school, since now I have no reason to put on make-up and look all pretty. I'm at home all the time, and I am getting sick of it. I want to put on eyeliner, mascara, all that fun stuff, and show the world how pretty I can be. Being cooped up inside is making me go insane. Right now, I don't care about my social anxiety. I just want to get out of the house, like to the mall or something. Thankfully though, we will be going to the animal shelter this Saturday since that guy did eventually call, so I'm looking forward to that. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Sunday, October 01, 2006 . 10/01/2006
The guy from the animal shelter never called back, so we didn't get to go yesturday. This disapointed me, but I didn't mind too much since I had bad cramps. If he doesn't call next weekend either I am going to be really frustrated. I need someplace to go; I am starting to go insane being home all the time.I tried a garden burger today, and it was pretty good. I only ate half since I wasn't too hungry, and it tasted kind of weird.. but I'll have to get used to it. I don't think I'll go back to eating meat again.
Sometimes when religion comes up, my dad tells me I shouldn't think too much about it and how it came to be. Why, though? Since I've been alone often, I have grown to enjoy thinking. Everyday I question things, question why I am here and how the world really works. Everyday I read and learn. Being alone gives me time to reflect on things, whereas if I had friends and went out regularly, I'd focus on who's going out with whom, etc. Though I never really did find that kind of thing interesting; people always gave me a headache and they still do. I require solitude often.
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Here's another one of those lame quizzes:
You're Alucard.Let me put it this way ... your name is 'Dracula' spelt backwards. If that doesn't show that you're pure evil, nothing will.You're feared by those who know you. You're non-existent unless you're creating pain for others. You're trapped - you're bitter - but damn, you know how to take those feelings out on other people. You're constantly searching for a challenge, and you're always confident that you can master it.
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