Thursday, November 30, 2006 . 11/30/2006
I was watching a show on excorcism on the history channel. It explained what it was.. not like I don't already know. There was this guy on there who claimed to be an exorcist, and it showed him in at one of these meetings where he "cleanses" people. The people who were thought to be possessed looked completely fake, like idiots pretending. He says that it's a kind of therapy and that we all have demons inside of us, but he took this in a literal sense and not a metaphorical one. If what he's doing is making people feel better, that's okay.. but what isn't okay is to just assume you have demons inside of you. There is a deeper reason why some people act the way they do, be it an illness or maybe just the way the person was brought up as a child.And then it got to the part with the boy who inspired the movie The Exorcist. It's been said to be well documented by a priest, and the boy's name remains confidential even to this day. Rappings on the wall were said to have occured, aswell as a shaking of the bed. I would think the boy was schizophranic (sp?) but it's said that the parents actually witnessed the bed shaking violently when they came into his room upon hearing a disturbance. However, his behavior was very much like the mental illness and the symptoms fit perfectly, from him hearing pounding on the walls to him transforming into a seemingly different person.
There was also this teenaged girl and her mother that seemed sincere upon talking about the time when the mother became possessed. I don't know whether to believe it or not.. yes, I'm a skeptic, but I also try to keep an open mind on things. I'll have to look into possession further.
After the show on excorcism came one about the Amityville Horror and whether it was a hoax or not. The Lutzes were interviewed, and they seemed to be telling the truth about what happened at that house. Skeptics and fellow believers were also interviewed. It's possible that since the Lutz family knew there were murders in the house that they expected it to be haunted. It's also possible that they faked it all.
It's hard to know what to believe anymore. This doesn't change my opinion that religion is a bunch of hooey, though.
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I still recall clearly when my mom said her father, my grandfather, was talking about gays like they were a sickness. I still regret not paying attention, I really do. I had a conversation with my parents today about this, and they agreed it was wrong. I asked my mom if she ever sat down with him and discussed why he thinks gays are so bad, and she said no. She said it was just part of his religion, and if she would have mentioned anything that conflicts with his views he would most likely get really upset and smack her.
I still wait for a chance to sit down with my grandparents and discuss these types of things. At some point I may not even wait for them to start by saying something crude; I could just ask if I could have a discussion with them. Not an argument, a civil discussion. I don't care if my grandpa might end up smacking me in the face; I really want to open his eyes. They say you can't teach an old dog new tricks, but it's never too late to learn something new. I just want my grandparents to see a different view on how they feel on not just gays, but other things aswell.
I remember my grandparents on my dad's side used to get me things for my birthday and for Christmas. Things a child would actually enjoy. But now they're dead and have been for some time now, and all that is left is my grandparents on my mom's side. They never get me anything special. I remember they once gave me a bible, and a story book about the bible.. all I remember about that book was that it was about a boy and that it smelled good. Now my grandparents only give me a card for my birthday with a dollar bill inside. They never give me anything for Christmas, and don't even bother to ask if there's anything I would like.
My dad told me that before I was born, my mom's parents would drop by quite frequently for visits. After I was born, though, they only visited once or twice before packing up and going to Florida. However, when my mom's sister had children, they came back and visited them often. It's almost as if they thought I was evil, or something.. like they wanted to avoid me. Nowadays whenever they're getting ready to go to Florida for the winter, they always go to my aunt's house, never ours. We can come and visit if we want.. but them avoiding us makes me feel less important, obsolete, worthless.
Maybe I'm just a typical teenager wanting to change everything. As I learn and start to realise things, I realise that my grandparents have been stuck all these years, believing in the same old ridiculous things. I want to change this, even if their days are numbered. If they die before I get the chance to discuss things with them, I'll be dissapointed, but at the same time would be thinking "good riddance".
On a bit of a side note, I just discovered this site, God is Imaginary. Actually, I think I may have come across it before, but didn't feel like reading that much. But now that I have, it's just amazing to me that other people besides me can have this kind of logic.. until only about a year ago I thought I was the only logical person out there.. which, in itself, really isn't all too logical.. but still.
Perhaps, with time, Catholicism and Christianity will fade. Like the ancient Egyptians and their gods, perhaps this too will pass. Perhaps it is time for the century of logic to be born, and when future generations open their history textbooks, both 'The Rise of Christianity' and 'The Fall of Christianity' will be there. The world will never be absolutely perfect, but take away religion, and we're one step closer to a perfect world. There will most likely always be murder, rape, etc.. but when none of it has to do with satisfying a non-existant god, that will indeed be something. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Wednesday, November 29, 2006 . 11/29/2006
The day before Thanksgiving, my mom mentioned that the last time we went to my aunt and uncle's house (the religious side), while I was playing checkers with my cousin she overheard my grandpa saying things about gays, and how "there are just some things out there we will never understand" or something to that effect. This made me really wish I was paying attention. For ages it seems, I've been waiting to tell off my idiot relatives and how stupid they sound, but the chance always seems to bypass me.I thought Christianity was supposed to be about peace and tolerence, and yet the bible itself contradicts this by saying gays will go to hell, because it is unnatural. It has rescently been observed that animals in the wild can be gay or bisexual. Some people could say, "Well, if that's natural, then why don't we allow murder? Animals kill, too". First off, it is very rare that an animal would kill it's own species, except for crocodiles, who tend to eat hatchlings that aren't their own. Second, murder harms people, being gay doesn't. If one were to say that it harms you mentally, then that person must be very shallow.
It still amazes me so much that religion has survived all these years, even with science explaining what couldn't be explained in ancient times. It's like religious people are at a stand-still, refusing to move and progress, refusing to learn anything but what their holy texts say. This can even happen in things non-religious. For example, my dad has been having headaches quite often lately. My mom and I tried to explain to him that drinking Pepsi and eating salty nuts wasn't doing any help in relieving those headaches and migrains, but all he did was say "yeah, yeah" and made childish faces. He refused to listen, refused to learn anything new. I even told this to him, and he came up with some stupid remark that I can't even remember.
All religious things aside.. lastnight after House, the news came on, and I noticed (not for the first time either) that all was reported were bad things. Some random person was murdered, some random house or building was set on fire. They never report any positive things, and not because there isn't any. After all, who would give a damn if some lady gave birth? No one, because it happens everyday. Well, so does murder and shootings and theivery. Just because it's more dramatic, they think people will care. And some do, but I think most wouldn't give a flying shit. Murder, fires, theivery, etc happens everyday, we get it.
The only things that should be on the news are things that might actually effect you, such as a virus going around or a new discovery in science. Or even a celebrity who thousands admired dying, or with help identifying a theif. Enough with these "so-and-so was shot today in Detroit".. how does that effect me? It doesn't. Call me souless, but I doubt people want to waste time watching negative events being broadcasted while they're waiting for the Weather. It's depressing, and it just makes me realise how much of a fucked up world we live in. I think everyone knows this by now, except maybe for those who are sheltered against the outside world. And maybe this is why they show negative events, so it isn't like people are being sheltered against such a terrible world. Only when the populace could be in danger, such as a roaming murderer, should such things be broadcasted. Saying on the news that someone's grandpa died is like saying some random woman gave birth. Who cares? The ones involved would care, of course, but why bring it up on the news? 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Monday, November 27, 2006 . 11/27/2006
I like the show Ghost Hunters, because of their logical view on debunking a haunting. However, there are some things that they aren't so logical on.For example, the Demonology section, and, in particular, this article. In it, it says that "During an investigation you need assess the situation more by what happened before you arrived than what is actually going on during the time you are there. Demons are capable of changing form right in front of you from a human form to an inhuman form." How do they know? Have they actually wittnessed this, or are they basing this "truth" from the Christian bible?
It seems that Ghost Hunters, while remaining logical on debunking ghosts, aren't so logical in the demon department. I'm caught between thinking that these people are complete idiots trying to look proffesional, to them actually being proffesional yet brainwashed.
While I do like the idea of demons, the possibility that they actually exist is minimal. Today, they are said to be evil spirits who were never human, and cast down from heaven. Ghosts on the other hand I believe could exist, as energy can neither be created nor destroyed, and conciousness, your thoughts, is energy.. and when your body ceases to function, this energy is released.
How do hauntings occur, then? Let's say you are sleeping in bed when all the sudden you hear someone break into your house. Your heart pounds in your chest as you see a figure with an axe from your garage in its hands. You are terrified.. the figure approaches, and you being too scared to move, are an easy target for the death blow. Boom, you're dead. What happens next? Your conciousness, spirit, whatever you want to call it, is released. Depending on whether or not you were satisfied with your life, and how traumatic your death was, your conciousness could linger at the scene. Or, it could have happened so fast that it wouldn't even know it was dead.. and thus, a haunting. The energy of the living's emotions would give your spirit energy to be able to do things, such as making noises or talking, so you could let yourself be known.
I'm rambling.. I need sleep. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Saturday, November 25, 2006 . 11/25/2006
I'm not as nerdy as I thought I was..| You Are 16% Nerdy |
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We had some other people over for Thanksgiving, and that was pretty fun. I got annoyed when they stood around to pray, taking it so seriously, but I kept my mouth shut. My other aunt and uncle came aswell, for dessert, and that was fun. They may be Christians, but their sense of humor is awesome.
There were a few times when I surprised my uncle - the one who was staying over at our house - by sortof "arguing" with him. He said that Dr Phil was a 'traitor to all men'. I asked him why and he said 'because the Man Show says so'. I replied with, 'so you let a show think for you?' And he thought I was shy.
Which brings me to another point.. my social anxiety is slowly going away. Doing school at home has done wonders to calm me down and have enough evergy to deal with people. Now I only get a bit anxious when people look at me, but somehow I enjoy it.
All in all it was a pretty good week, but I am so happy that my aunt and uncle left. They were staying in the room this computer was in, so now I finally get to come back. It was exhausting having people over, but to be honest, it was worth it. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Sunday, November 19, 2006 . 11/19/2006
We're going to be having company over on Thanksgiving and I must say that I'm not too thrilled. I'm not in the mood for overly-happy, Jesus-loving relatives. Thanksgiving has got to be my least favorite holiday besides Easter. 'What are you thankful for?' is such an annoying question. What's also annoying is how holidays tend to bring families together.. like for me, on Thanksgiving. I hate the word 'family', I hate the word 'love' (when it comes to relatives). I hate people in general.I've been looking through forums, gaming ones this time. Nerd-infested shitholes those are. Not even the General Discussion forums are very interesting. I came accross a 'Pet Peeves' thread in one of these forums, thinking "Ooh, these are always good".. no, not when nerds are involved. 'WHEN SOMEONE TOUCHES MY CONSOLE' is about the most stated "pet peeve".
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Saturday, November 18, 2006 . 11/18/2006
| You Are 53% Perfectionist |
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Friday, November 17, 2006 . 11/17/2006
I keep crying for no reason. That time of the month again.I feel worthless, depressed.. why does this have to happen?
Well, anyway.. another reason why I don't like to go to the animal shelter every weekend is because, well.. it feels like I've been lied to. The first time I went there, there were other people there too, and it was an introduction on how to properly walk a dog. We each were taking turns walking the dog that was used in the demonstration, and the lady said that while we're walking she'll be studying us and our personalities and matching us with a dog. This got me excited.. I thought I was going to get my own personal dog to train and walk. But that just isn't the case. What she said was incredibly pointless, as anyone can walk any dog, and the dog I was "assigned" to really isn't mine. That means the dog has other influences besides me. And here I thought having a dog to train would teach me about myself, how far I can go, etc. Of course I have my own dog at home, but he doesn't have any problems. I wanted to be paired with a dog at the shelter that was difficult, like me. A dog I could learn from.
Oh yeah, and this Blogger beta sucks. The fonts are fucking huge and it's all confusing. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Tuesday, November 14, 2006 . 11/14/2006
Today when I went to let my older dog out, she wouldn't at first.. she likes to hide underneath a desk whenever I'm home and my parents are at work. She doesn't do this when my mom and dad are home, like if say, they take a day off.So I offered her a piece of a Ritz cracker, and she still wouldn't come out. Given that she always seems to be hungry, I didn't expect this of her. I try coaxing her out for a few more minutes and then finally gave up. After I went back to the computer, though, she came after me as if to say "I'm sorry".
Sugar - a dauchsound (sp?) - was originally meant to be my dog, but she ended up being my mom's dog instead. I remember when Sugar would curl up next to me and keep me warm, and how she would come to me if I called. She never used to get into the garbage and rarely licked the floor.. but now, she's a mess. She's been this way ever since we got rid of Marty - a puppy that was rather aggressive - and now she is a nervous wreck.
The reason she might be afraid of me is because I used to fight in the morning about going to school. I would yell, I would scream, I would lock myself in the bathroom until my parents gave up and left. But all that is in the past now, and I'm not sure if it's Sugar that isn't over that, or if it's something else.
She has Cushing's, we found out about last year.. this causes her to think she's hungry all the time, puts extra fat around her belly, and makes her want to lick. She's around nine years old now..
I remember when I first saw her in her cage with another puppy at the pet store. She had this bruise on her head due to other dogs nipping at her.. but that could have been a lie. She could have been abused by the people who worked there. I don't know. But it eventually went away, and she was so sweet. She still is, just.. more nervous. She isn't herself. It hurts my feelings that whenever I go near her she starts shaking like she's really scared. It never used to be this way.
I don't want her to die, but that's inevidable. When the day comes that we have to put her down, or when I find her just laying on the floor, or when my mom wakes me up to tell me Sugar died lastnight.. my heart will truly break. The vet said that she's expected to live another year or two. Maybe she'll surprise them by living longer. I hope so, but I wouldn't want her to suffer, either.
I imagine that when her time comes, her ghost might linger for awhile. That garbage cans will seemingly knock themselves over, that I'll feel her licking my legs. It would be comforting to know that she's alright, and will never forget us. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Monday, November 13, 2006 . 11/13/2006
Monday again.. I should be doing my school work but I've been watching atheist/religious videos both for educational purposes and for picking up debating tactics. Yeah, losery, I know.I'm writing this because I'm bored. I really don't have anything to say. No thoughts on anything.. my mind is a blank. Maybe later. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Saturday, November 11, 2006 . 11/11/2006
This pisses me off. People spend tons of dollars to research something.. only to confirm something that we already knew.Well no shit! Anyone who is smart would avoid things that cause "traumatic events"!
Why can't these people spend money on something.. oh I dunno.. WORTH IT? Fucking idiots. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
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Friday, November 10, 2006 . 11/10/2006
I've been spending nearly all day today browsing through forums. I always do this when I'm bored, read through people's opinions. There has been quite a rise on religious topics lately, and I especially like looking into those when I'm particularly bored and my mind is fresh.. in other words, not groggy like I am now. My mind literaly feels about ten times bigger. Not to mention my eyes are probably about ten times weaker from this computer screen.So many opinions, but can there truly only be one answer? Maybe, and maybe not. When it comes to religion, the existance of a god can neither be proved nor disproved, so therefore I think it fair to say that if one side claims a god exists and the other thinks otherwise, they'd both be wrong. Logic ofcourse tells me, as well as many other people, that believing in a god and taking any 'holy book' literaly (whether it be the Christian bible, Quran, whatever) makes just as much sense as say, believing that Frodo really did exist and believing he saved the world.
Both Lord of the Rings and any holy bible pretty much tells a story. Though the main purpose, I think, of holy bibles is to state values in which humanity would be wise to follow, and examples of these values. Hardly anyone would want to read a list, so writing a story to connect all these values together makes sense.
Actually believing a deity exists, however, is more questionable. To me, God just represents the essence of what we know to be 'good', not an actual being in a literal sense. Some of the values in the Christian bible would truly be wise to embrace, I think, but then again, one person's values varies from another person's, like opinions do.
The Christian bible is made up of many books put together, ofcourse, and it was written and rewritten by various people in various timeframes. It has been edited; things added, things removed.. basically, to give God a more peaceful 'personality', I guess you could say, as the Old Testament shows him as being brutal, unjust, racist, among many other things.
These people who have rewritten the bible could have very well been added onto and revising what they thought the true God to be like, changing his motives and the like. If there truly was a God, he would be looking down on the people who supposedly wrote his word and shake his head. If you were to tell someone to write a biography about you and your thoughts, and then this gets rewritten to what the next author thinks is true, and if this goes on.. it doesn't change the original person. So, even if there was a God, he isn't the same one that people have been worshipping.
Some may question why I even bother thinking about that stuff. You're only sixteen, go out and have some fun! Truth is, thinking is fun for me. While I do enjoy acting stupid, and yes, I DO have a sense of humor.. I also enjoy time alone so that I can think.
Call me an equivillant of some old guy, a smart person, a nerd, a geek, whatever..
That's ok.
And I just realised that I am pretty much arguing with myself since barely anyone bothers to comment, or at the very least read all this. Pssht. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Thursday, November 09, 2006 . 11/09/2006
| Your Vocabulary Score: B+ |
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They are Christian video game developers, like Tom Bean, President and CEO of Digital Praise.
“Some of the games that are out in the mainstream market right now introduce a lot violence, blood, guts and gore,” Bean said. “We found there is a need for an alternative, for families to be able to find fun and entertaining games that reinforce positive images.”
Digital Praise is one of the leaders in developing Christian-themed video games. Bean and other faith-based gamers say many, if not most of the games on the market now tend to focus on “too much evil and not enough good.”
Clean, wholesome video games
Consider Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas. The game originally had an “M” rating for mature, meaning it was suitable for players 17 and older. But when a gamer discovered how to uncover hidden sex scenes buried in the game, the rating was changed to adults only. Bean says this is exactly the reason why there is a need for clean, wholesome video games.
“It is difficult to find games that are appropriate,” Bean said. “And even those that are rated E for everyone may not really be appropriate for children.”
Victoria Tolin, for one, wants these kinds of videos. The 11-year-old loves the games, but doesn’t like violence.
“I play a lot of Christian video games,” Tolin said. “They don’t have fights. You just have to follow Jesus and pick up little crosses for points.”
Bean and other Christian game developers are looking for more gamers like Victoria. Right now, the market for Christian titles is small. According to Bean, Christian games represent less than one percent of all games that are out there.
“We are trying to change that and make a positive impact and create some alternative for families,” Bean said.
Creating niche market
Currently Christian video games are mainly sold in Christian bookstores, mixed among the Christian books and music. Game developers want to change that by breaking into the mainstream market, and that was topic number one at this year’s 4th annual Christian Game Developers Conference in Portland, Ore.
Developers from all over the country gathered to share ideas and hand out awards for the best Christian games of the year.
Insiders, like game producer Kathy Bucklin of Crave Entertainment, said the industry is close to breaking into the mainstream market with the release of Christian titles for popular gaming consoles like the Playstation and Xbox.
“Our game is called the Bible Games and it’s coming out on the Game Box advance, Playstation 2 and Xbox,” Bucklin said. “It’s Bible trivia. The Playstation and Xbox game is a game show. So it’s really just understanding Bible trivia and see what you know and hopefully learning a little too.”
Bucklin compares the Christian gaming market to the Christian music market. Christian rock has become a powerhouse in the industry, selling roughly 43 million albums in the U.S. last year.
Bucklin is quick to point out that Christian rock was not an overnight top seller.
“Instead of saying Christian music and people going ugg, now it’s acceptable and people are a lot more accepting,” said Bucklin. “I think Christian video games are going to have the same kind of road to go up."
Fun, not Sunday school
The challenge for Christian game developers is two-fold. First the games must be fun, filled with action and adventure and second the games must be able to visually compete with the popular mainstream games.
“I think for Christian video games to really carve out a piece of the market, the games will have to look like they are truly competitive in terms of quality with the mainstream secular games,” explained gaming expert Adam Sessler, who hosts X-Play on G4 TV.
And Christian Game developers hope it won’t take a miracle to convince consumers Christian games are more than a Sunday school lesson in the living room.
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Yay, yet more sheltered bullshit for kids! A part of me really hopes this is a hoax, but with all the idiots out there, you never know.
"Christian" video games will never make it. The people who buy them will just get laughed at. And bible trivia? Come on, you can get books to test your skills. That's more healthy than staring at a screen 24/7 like I tend to do. TV and the computer ruins your eyes. Seriously.
Why do they have to be "Christian", exactly? Why not just non-violent games? There TONS of those out there, like The Magic School Bus (I have pretty much every magic school bus game out there, and none of them has anything inapropriate unless you are some sheltered person who finds a talking lizard offensive).
Seriously, are Christians trying to rule the world or something? These idiots can just keep their goody-two-shoes games in their own stores. 0 Comments - Post/view comments Thursday already.. time is sure going by fast.
I should probably be reading from my history textbook right now, but I pulled a neck muscle and it really hurts.. though that isn't an excuse since I'm on the computer, after all.
My mom said that she noticed that now I'm doing school at home I've become a bit more social, and this is true. When I'm at school I get overstimulated, what with all the noise and the fact I get annoyed so easily. Now that I have some quiet, it's better, and I have more energy to deal with people.
For Thanksgiving, some people will be coming over. I'm a bit nervous about it.. but it would also be a good opportunity to discuss beliefs. I have been waiting for so long for the right moment to do this, which is why I jump at every opportunity to go to my aunt and uncle's house, a family reunion, whatever. Maybe this Thanksgiving will be it. Maybe someone will go over the top on saying how good their god is, or force me to believe, and then I'll have a reason to start up a discussion. Something for them to think about, another explaination for how the world works.
I wonder if religion will ever go away. Some say that as long as someone is afraid of death, religion will stay. People are so insecure. It's okay to believe that there's some afterlife (I personally think there is some form of life after death) but when logic gets completely thrown aside, that's when it needs to stop.
I have a few out of many examples of ignorance that I'll put down. The first is my dad. He refuses to believe that the bible was rewritten over the centuries. He says that all the people who wrote the bible were in different countries with no contact to eachother at all, and so therefore it must be true. Wrong and wrong. It was started by a group of monks and was rewritten several times, 40 to be exact. Forty times in a span of 1500 years.
The second is my friend's mom. She says that she is sheltered, the reason being that she is only allowed to watch movies with Jesus in it, and Harry Potter is forbidden. This to me makes absolutely no sense at all, and it's so stupid that I don't even know where to begin, especially on the 'movies with Jesus' part. Let's just say that doing this completely seperates you from reality, and to force it on your own daughter is just plain wrong. What does her mom expect her to do in the future, curse everything not to do with Jesus? She'll be humiliated!
The third is an online friend who is also sheltered. He says that his parents raised him in a way so that he feels guilty about things, such as not going to church for example. This can completely ruin someone's life.
It's about time people open up their eyes, ears, and use their brains for once. Believing in a god is just outdated, to put it bluntly. A long time ago, people didn't know how things came into being or how animals and humans got to be the way they are now, so they made up gods to explain this. But now, we have proven evolution, we have proven that there is a logic exlaination for things that were once dubbed as 'supernatural'. My dad says that evolution hasn't been proven, when it fact it has been. All you have to do is look it up, and evidence is everywhere.
Evolution isn't always this obvious. When you get a flu shot every year, for example, this because the virus has evolved.. yes, EVOLVED.. to be immune to the antibiotic. Therefore, a new, updated one has to be used. This is the reason in itself why we get flu shots every year.
But how did people grow so intelligent? some might ask. We evolved over thousands of years, do you know how long that is? Many things can happen in this timespan, including the ability to adapt to the environment. Without this ability, we would be dead. Hell, everything would be dead. Times change, and so do the organisms that live here. If a god made us one way and one way only, we would be dead.
But evolution and creationism can go together. No, they can't. In the Christian bible specifically, it is stated that God created all things as they are today. For people to theorize that perhaps this god helped evolution along is against the bible, and that would be considered a "sin", to not believe.
Which brings me to another point: people who cherry-pick things in their bible, choosing some things to believe in and ignoring others, yet they still call themselves (insert religion)s. Is that not a sin, to refuse their god's word?
But the bible isn't to be taken literally, they are just a list of values. Why is it then that this religion exists in the first place? If you can pick what to believe in and what not to, why not just ditch the bible, koran, whatever it is, and start thinking for yourself? In a way, religious people ARE thinking for themselves in that they are finding flaws in their own holy books, thus the 'cherry-picking'. Simply put, religion is mostly devoid of logic. To pick some things as right and others not IS logic. Congratulations, you are just one step away from actually thinking for yourself.
Your god calls you followers 'sheep' for a reason. That is like saying we as humans are stupid and will follow a leader aimlessly. It is about time we break free from this ridiculous notion.
There are so many religions in the world. Only one can be right. Given the above explainations, I'd say none are. They are nothing but fairy tales. 2 Comments - Post/view comments
Tuesday, November 07, 2006 . 11/07/2006
Doots did come back yesturday. He's only been out one night, and I didn't know that. I worry too much.. but I think that's normal when your cat goes out in the woods nearly every night with no collar. He always finds a way to get them off, and one time he even got it stuck on some branch out in the woods, resulting in an embedded collar. The thing was supposed to snap off if the cat got stuck, but it didn't. I've suggested having one of those identity chips implanted in the cats, and my parents agreed that that would be a good idea, but they rarely get around to doing things until much later.I've been thinking on why I got so pissed walking that dog on Saturday. Is it because I had to walk more than I was used to? Possibly. Is it because the dog was being difficult? Maybe. But the real reason, I think, is the fact that I don't like loud noises. So when we first get the dogs out of their kennels, the other dogs there will be barking, and that puts me on edge. The other people there annoy me too. If it wasn't for all the barking and the people, I'd be just fine. Because really, I love dogs, it's loud noises and people that I find irritating. I can't accomplish a task very well when other people are around, which includes caring for a sheltered dog. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Monday, November 06, 2006 . 11/06/2006
I went to the animal shelter with my friend on Saturday, and it was pretty fun I guess. Walking the dogs kind of made me pissed off though, since the one I was walking kept trying to get infront of me. We walked quite a ways too, and I'm not used to that, so I got really tired and irritated. When we went back to the shelter to put the dogs in their kennels or whatever, I was relieved that it was over. I was so tired, I just wanted to leave.So the part of actually being at the shelter wasn't what was fun.. it was afterwards. My friend stayed over for awhile and we talked, something I haven't done in a long time. It was nice having an actual friend instead of just me with my parents all the time. I didn't feel like a loser.
I finished the second exam for World History, and I got about three wrong or so. It gets so boring sitting at home by myself that sometimes I wonder if it would be better for me to go back to regular school, but then I begin to think how horrible it will be. Me, all quiet, no friends, stress. Then again, if I went back in the middle of the year, people would be more friendly towards me, I think, as opposed to going on the first day of school like everybody else. They'd want to make sure I had friends, so they'd come to me. That always happened when new people came in class in the middle of the year.
Anyway.. I've been thinking a lot lately on how much I want to be in a relationship, and not just on the internet either. I need to be close to somebody, I need to be told I am loved. I am afraid when my time does come that I'll be all awkward and nervous. But then again, pretty much everyone tends to get that way.
My favorite cat, Doots, hasn't come in for awhile. He does this quite often but I worry.. he tends to get into fights. Just a few days ago he came home with a bloody face. I fucking hate my dad for letting him out all the time. I keep telling him that he could get killed, and he only replies with a childish "psh" noise or "will you clean the litterbox?" My god, what's more important, worrying about the smell of cat poop or your favorite cat dying because of ignorance? After all, it's his favorite cat too. I am going to make my dad's life a fucking living hell if my cat doesn't come back soon. I keep trying to explain to him.. uhg.. it's just so frustrating. He is so stupid that it's hard to argue with him. He turns everything into an arguement. This has got to fucking stop. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
Wednesday, November 01, 2006 . 11/01/2006
I've been reading through my history book for school, and there's lots of interesting things in there. However, I find it hard to really concentrate. Like I'll pick out topics that look interesting and read that, and then I get tired. I want to know everything but I can't force myself to. Another thing I don't like is these questions at the end of each lesson.. things I don't really care for. I do better when I just think things through, instead of writing it down. Sometimes I'll be thinking about something, look to the questions in the lesson, and I lose my train of thought. I hate it. I know I don't have to complete those small assignments as it won't count towards my grade anyway, just the exams will, but I still feel like I should answer the questions. If I don't, it feels like I'm not doing something right, even if my understanding on the subject is good.School things aside, today has been pretty good. I watched tv before I did any work, and there wasn't much on. There was something on the history channel about the Neandrathals, however, so I watched that, and as most things do, it got me thinking. Since these early humans buried their dead, men mostly, with flowers and other such items, did they have a belief in an afterlife? Think about it: you live in such an early time that barely anything is known, and causes of death are no exception. So, imagine returning to your cave when you find a family member laying still, not breathing. You check the body, try to wake the person up, but nothing happens. Where did this person's personality go? Could it have just vanished, or did it travel to some other place, unknown and unseen by the human eye? Did these early peoples believe in deities?
I don't know just how advanced the Neandrathals' minds were, so it is hard to say if they were capable of believing in supernatural things such as gods. Naturally people search for a reason as to why something occurs, and if none is found, a reason is thought up, such as a deity causes it to rain. As far as I know, no tell-tale signs of early people believing in gods exists, so perhaps they just didn't think about it, or were uncapable of doing so. And, perhaps they buried their dead with care just because the dead person was well-loved, and not because of any afterlife beliefs. We may never know.
Sometimes I wonder if there is even a point in thinking about things like this other than I enjoy it. Sometimes I wish my mind would just shut up for once. I feel like a damn nerd. Years of not having any real friends will do that to you. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
