Friday, February 25, 2005 . 2/25/2005

We had a peprally today at school (neither of my parents could pick me up early so I had to go). It just reminded me how friendless I am. All but a few friends I know are on the internet, and the ones in real life I hardly hear from anymore. I just have a feeling that I am not SUPPOSED to be this quiet, this "shy", that I am not supposed to have this social anxiety. I feel as if I should be in with the funny popular kids, have a boyfriend, etc, but I don't have any of those things. It was so much easier to talk to people when I was younger, like say 1st grade through 3rd. Up until then I moved to a different school and have been to about 3 others since then. 4th grade is when social anxiety started. It is terrible. I shouldn't be this way! I am talkative everywhere but school! It just isn't right.. And people think I will grow up to be this killer or something, because "you know what they say, the quiet ones are the dangerous ones". Of course, I have no objection to that. 0 Comments - Post/view comments