Monday, June 20, 2005 . 6/20/2005
I have this weird pain in my throat and chest. It's kindof going away now, but every time I wake up in the day I always get this weird pain.I wanna swim.. the pool liner had a hole in it so now the pool's being filled with water again. The temperature is pretty cold today anyway (in the pool).
I'd feel uncomfortable swimming infront of my parents. I don't know why, it just feels that way. Especially my dad. I wish he would just go away.
I want to get out of the house, but doing so just with my parents is stupid and boring and annoying. I only have one friend that could come with me, but she hasn't called in a while and I can't imagine calling her myself.
My dad is such a stupid moron. He acts all annoying, I tell him to shut up, he tells me I don't tell him to shut up, but what the fuck does he expect anyway? I hate him so much and his little christian ass. I can't believe he doesn't go to church for fuck's sake. I can't wait for the right moment to tell him off and tell him satanism isn't what he thinks it is. That would feel so good to finally explain it to him. But I must find the right moment. And it better be soon. Maybe, since my dad likes to invade my privacy so much, I'll visit this site that explains what Satanism really is so he can check it out in the 'History' tab when next he feels he should see what 'I've been up to'. Of course, he has blocked Cult/Occult, so I can only go to chached pages. I have been feeling like telling him to take down that blocker, at least in that category, and that would be a good time to explain to him. 2 Comments -
It's kind of sad i don't go out.
My day is: Get up, turn comp on, do bathroomy things, breakfast, back to comp, toilet, food, comp, walk around, bed. I need help lmao.. how can i do that day after day for months..
If you lived near me we could go out somewhere.. where would you go with your friend if you could phone and ask them?
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7:34 PM
That's my life too pretty much lols..
I'd ask if maybe they'd like to go see a good movie (like the newest Star Wars lolol)or maybe just going to the mall for a bit.. I dunno..
