Monday, June 19, 2006 . 6/19/2006

I'm getting my hair and eyebrows done today, and I'm still not sure whether I want my hair darker, like black, or not. I don't really want to have to worry about my hair color fading along with my eyebrows that grow back so fast, so I just don't know..

Anyway, lastnight I cut myself shaving, which I've done before. Thing is, just a little bit of blood makes me want to black out and faint. I get hot, my heart beats fast, I get lightheaded, become even more pale than I am now. Thing is though, I love gore, like in movies. I WANT to be able to stand the sight of blood, but I just can't. I couldn't even stand the sight of it as a child. Sometimes I think I was born this way to keep me from murdering people. If I ever did murder someone, it would be with a knife. Guns are just.. too modern. But they can explode the face, which is interesting. Thing is I'm scared of knives. Whenever I have to unload the dishwasher I get rid of them as soon as possible, and hold them FAR away from me.

But I want to be able to stand these things, like any normal person could. But then again, even if I could stand blood and knives to the point where I don't feel like fainting, I still wouldn't be normal. No, not at all. 0 Comments - Post/view comments