Saturday, July 15, 2006 . 7/15/2006

I decided I wanted to go somewhere today. I was excited. So my parents and I went to Target. My mom didn't need anything there, but I wanted to look at the computer games. Nothing. Then my mom goes to get eye make-up remover, and we go to the checkout line with only that. I remember when I was walking down an aisle this cute guy was walking, his arms folded like mine were. We looked away and kept moving. On the way to the car my dad goes, "well that was exciting", and my mom went "I'm sure Borders will be really exciting too". I had a feeling they were making fun of me. It was hot out too so I was getting really irritated, which made it worse.

On the way to Borders I was looking in other cars, and you know what I saw? Friends. So I asked to go home and here I am now. All the way home I silently cried.

I hate my life so much. In my situation I should be thinking that I'm going to be alone forever, but somehow.. I know I won't. My life will begin someday, it must.

Sometimes I think about going back to regular school instead of the option of online school. But I'll be depressed there too. Seeing all these friends, these couples.. I don't know if I can handle it again. 0 Comments - Post/view comments