Wednesday, July 05, 2006 . 7/05/2006

I just found this new game Ubisoft is coming up with, Assassin's Creed, and it looks really nice. The assasin.. uhg, so hot. You know, a lot of times I hope that someday I might meet a guy who likes to go around hooded.. a tough guy, like a murderer or assassin. And this in turn makes me have an urge to go and kill someone secretly. I know, my mind is really messed up. I cannot take it anymore. The only thing keeping me from killing someone is the blood. I hate the sight of blood, and part of me hopes that someday I'll overcome that. If I type anything more, I'll most likely arouse suspition that I may be a future serial killer or something. I don't want anyone to think this.

But, people have always thought that this was a possibilty for me. They always said, "You know, murderers are silent", or something like that, and of course I am too. "Are you going to be a murderer?" "Never trust quiet people".. and I think in my head, "Damn right". I know most people who suffer from social anxiety like I do or shyness would be horrified to think that people would think of them as murderers. But for me this isn't the case. I love it.

I've been becoming more unhealthy as of late. My sleeping schedule is irregular, though I'm mostly up at night. I'm very pale. I'm always hungry. Like right now, only I don't know what to eat.. macaroni & cheese sounds good I guess.. 0 Comments - Post/view comments