Friday, August 11, 2006 . 8/11/2006

I was going through some old stuff today, things from kindergarten - 5th grade. It makes me cry seeing this old stuff, like from kindergarten this card that said "I love you mom and dad". I even have a little graduation hat.

I was so innocent back then.. and clueless. Clueless in the fact that I just gobbled down any Jesus mumbo-jumbo that was given to me. It's awful that little kids born into Christian families have no choice but to believe what their parents say. This of course applies to many other religions aswell.

Now I am older.. much older.. and one day 'decided' to think for myself for once in what I believed in. No more Jesus bullcrap. I've learned things since way back when, and none of them favor towards Christianity. They pretty much craved power when the religion rose, and many probably still do. Putting blasphemy to all other religions so theirs would possibly be the only one. Proclaiming all things different from their religion "of the devil". Horrible.

But now, as I look back, I know I had a great life. There's something about being a little kid that's just good. It's not possible to get self-concious, to worry about what others think of you. Just shyness was possible, and even then it went away. I had friends then.

Now I don't. Either we lost touch or they moved.. some people I knew from kindergarten - 2nd grade go to my high school, but we were never in the same classes or had the same lunch schedule. Other friends I had moved away, and only one remains, but I rarely hear from her. I honestly don't think it's because she doesn't want to see me anymore; it's her mom that prevents us from getting together sometime. I was on the phone with her one day and all I could hear in the backround was "GET YOUR BUTT OVER HERE AND TAKE OUT THE GARBAGE". It should be noted that this was a single mom with two kids and little money, so I can't really blame her, but still..

Yesturday my mom asked me if I wanted to take computer or corrispondance classes, and I chose the latter. With this I can get my books and assignments in the mail and just send them back when I'm done. It's best that way since I spend far too much time on the computer as it is, and it's bad for my eyes.

The only thing I'm not sure on is what "hobby" my mom is forcing me to get into I could have that involves people in some way. Something with animals, definately.. most kids who are sent to some animal shelter is because they treat people badly, and supposedly being around animals and caring for them would be a good way to learn that people should be treated with respect, too. But not me.. I love animals, not people.

Anyway, if I were to get into some hobby or 'job' with animals I don't think I would want it involving horses, like horseback riding. Now don't get me wrong, I love horseback riding, but with lessons I'd have to learn how to put on all the tack, clean the hooves, etc. This may sound lazy, but that's just too much for me. Besides, being around horses for too long just makes me feel dirty.

Something involving the care of big cats would be cool, since I love cats and always wanted to see one of the large breeds up close. 0 Comments - Post/view comments