Wednesday, May 09, 2007 . 5/09/2007

Well, yesterday was my birthday. I was supposed to go shopping with my mom but I decided not to. I always do this.. get all excited about going somewhere and then I start to think about how stupid I must look, following my mom like an idiot. Now I only go somewhere if I absolutely have to. This is why I want so much for there to be a death in the family (no one close, hopefully) so that I can go to a funeral, get dressed up all nice in an elegant outfit. The downside would be sitting there and listening to the monotonous rantings of the priest about becoming a Christian if you aren't one, blah blah. They basically use the dead to send their sick message, which is what they did with my cousins. I will never forget that.

Anyway.. I spent all day yesterday in bed, even cried a little bit. I've always had at least one friend over on my birthday, but not this time. All of my friends have either moved to different states or we just lost connection altogether. There is one friend that still lives nearby, but she's immature and she annoys me.

It was supposed to rain yesterday but it didn't, which pissed me off. I cannot stand the sun at all, unless it is early morning. As afternoon comes, it just gets too intense for me (my pupils don't dilate properly). Luckily, today is cloudy and stormy. I love days like this so very much.. so much that tears nearly come to my eyes. The sound of rain, and especially thunder, just relaxes me and makes me feel safe. 0 Comments - Post/view comments