Wednesday, November 28, 2007 . 11/28/2007
I went swimming with my mom and cousin yesterday. Last time there was no one in there, but this time there were quite a few.. only two kids were swimming but there was a girl around my age looking after them and three or four guys in the hot tub. At first my cousin and I were a little weirded out, especially because those guys were there, but eventually we went in and swam. After that I didn't really care other people were there; in fact, I noticed the guys were looking at me, and I actually found this empowering. It is such a great feeling when the anxiety is gone and replaced with confidence. Those days when you just want everyone to know you exist and to notice you, to look at you, look at how well you are doing for yourself. I wish every day could be like that.Anyway, my cousin has been talking about how almost every girl in her school and church talks about her behind her back, and that she is sick of going to that school and sick of going to church. My mom mentioned that they were supposed to be Christians (which in reality doesn't keep most from acting in a bigoted way). I think that because of this my cousin has a chance from being free of her religious chains and brainwashed upbringing, and while I hate the fact that she is being talked about behind her back, it also makes me happy that perhaps someday she'll come to realize that religion is all a lie. 0 Comments - Post/view comments
