Thursday, November 29, 2007 . 11/29/2007

I've done something last night that I'm not proud of at all.

My dad has been listening to Christian music lately (quietly on his computer) and I asked him rather abruptly why. It was meant to be a genuine question, and I hoped it would progress into a calm discussion, but it went far from that. Instead, my dad wouldn't answer me, said he didn't have to answer me. He was getting so damn offensive over it, I got frustrated, and it turned into a yelling match. Over and over both he and my mom kept repeating that "it all just comes down to faith and what you believe" (emphasis theirs). I started to cry because they were yelling at me, I yelled back. It was pathetic on both sides. What made me want to laugh and cry at the same time was when my dad said being a rational person had nothing to do with believing in a god, and when he told me that I shouldn't believe everything I read on the internet. Wow, good going there, dad. Way to go on being a hypocrite as only a complete fool would believe that shoddy mythology known as the bible.

I ended up storming out of the room after yelling back for some time. I kept thinking how horrible a person I was, getting upset and, fucking hell, CRYING over something so pathetic. I think I do that because it still surprises me how my parents, my goddamn PARENTS, still believe in an imaginary being. It's sad and it is ridiculous. We have science to explain things now, we don't need god in this time period at all. What's more, people just don't realize that religions and "holy texts" were put to use to control the populace. We don't need this anymore; we shouldn't be this naive anymore.

So anyway.. I then got the idea to ask my mom why she just didn't stone me, since that's what the bible says to do to "misbehaving children". She came up with the genius (sarcasm) reply that we're "living in the New Testament now". Okay, I thought this god was supposed to be perfect and moral? Why is it that he ordered children to be stoned in the Old Testament? Did he just change his mind (assuming he even exists)?

Maybe I'm just too emotionally unstable to hold a discussion without getting so bent out of shape. But then again, theists tend to be mentally unstable anyway. Hell, their beliefs are so juvenile that they don't even deserve to be debated over. It's just impossible to have a discussion/debate with somebody who wants nothing to do with the truth and how the world really is. It's like you have to talk to them like they're children.

The good news is is that my parents didn't stay mad at me, nor did my yelling discredit me. If it did, they probably would have thought me a "poor lost soul" and follow me into my room and pray for me. Or something. I told my mom that I felt that when my dad said "to not believe everything you read", he was sorely underestimating me. He came in and apologized, and then I asked him if he didn't think I was stupid then why was it that he could honestly look my cat in the eye (literally) and say there was nothing wrong with it? 'Lo and behold, he finally said we would take him to the vet.

Hallelujah.

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